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3:53 PM

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You make me smile like the sun

Fall out of bed, sing like bird

Dizzy in my head, spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile

4:48 PM

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there's just so much to say and feel. but all i wanna do is. lie on my bed. day dream and fall asleep :)

10:35 PM

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i dont know why but i love eminem xD i just love his songs. not that i'm being emotional or anything. but i think his songs really mean something and it'll be different everytime i re read the lyrics. :) - probably this applies to his song that im in love with. - beautiful. not sure about the rest. xD

5:02 PM

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this update is gonna be short cause i'm gonna sleep soon. i've gotta say this but. there's always something.. bugging me in the morning. today i was thinking about the mistakes i made during exams. then the birds just started chirping.. and they never stopped till i woke up at 8am. anyways. i got a koala bear today :) going to labuan on friday :) and i really wanna get a hair cut and eat indian food! :P anyways. greatest thing that happened. I got into editorial :) *smiles!!!* :) i'llupdate more tomorrow :) nightss. love youu! :P

11:59 PM

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The most screwed up part about this post is that the sequence of pictures starts from the bottom. Enjoy :) Farah's Sweet 16! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH!

You belong with us :)

WOOTSSS!! THERE's a POLE! we're all just doing our job :)

The Science students :)

the 4A1'sssss..

"We never fail to produce good pictures" - Pamela

Candid! The random leg is mine xD

My Favourite Picture of the day :)

October babies ! :)

She looks like a dolled princess :)

Happy Sweet 16! :)

EVERYONE's present to Farah

11:43 PM

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dont read this post if you cant take vulgar words.

whatever. okay. PLANS PEOPLE! PLANS! i know fuck them cause they fucking never work. Last week's plan to go shopping was post poned cause i went with mummy for a party and slept over at her friend's place. then i had to come back and study biology. today i went to klcc. i only got heels. no dress. not even accessories. i know. waddafark. tomorrow, supposed to go for lunch! a farking lunch! i mean. it was post poned for 3 fucking weeks! week 1 : my effing aunt came back late and the shop closed. and we all decided to go to a chicken rice. and these brainless geniuses ordered seafood. in a farking chicken rice shop. god. week 2: my brother went out with his friends. week 3: this week. he's planning to go to malacca tomorrow. what the fark. and he says he's gonna go there cause his farking timetable changed and he'll be back every thursday so we can go for lunch anytime on friday. not like my dad doesnt go to seremban. its like the what? hunderedth time?! omfg.

OHMYFARKINGGOD! i so dont fucking care. i dont have anything to wear on saturday! FUCK IT. yes. i've said it once and i'll say it again! FUCK IT!

10:13 PM

i hate exams.
i'm currently not in the mood to camwhore.
i need to sleep.
and get something for saturday! - i still havent got an outfit. just shoes =.=
GRRRRRR xD

9:41 PM

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When I woke up, all I could smell was the floral scent of body soap and shampoo =)

ohmegah. I'm supposed to be studying now. I'm having literature in english tomorrrowwww. And I have to be at school at 7.20am eventhough exam only starts at 10.30am. Well, I guess mummy will be sending me to school tomorrow then :) I'll be able to wake up an hour later. Unless the feeling of being unprepared for exams comes to haunt my dreams and chase me out of bed at 3 in the morning. I'm online. Chatting with the nuttiest person who calls me nutty. And Brigidta started studing! With a bag of Famous Amos chips in front of me :) Shut up about my weight now. I miss the night where everything went wrong but felt so right.

7:07 PM

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that feeling of alcohol running in my bloodstream and all the late nights romancing with my books are just so enjoyable. that high, dizzy moment where everything appears to be sheer bliss. everything might feel right eventhough its so wrong. its like everything i'm thinking of. I enjoyed :) more to come. i wont lose myself. not now. when the time is right, i'll break free from these strings holding me together.

7:55 PM

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Even if Chuck Bass is suppose to be a filthy rich imprudent heartless alcoholic bastard who gets everything his way, he's damn freaking hot. I used to agree with Pam that Daniel was/is hot. Now he's just a Lonely Boy. Chuck Bass Looks So Effing Hot When He's Drunk :) He even looks hot seducing Blair. God, he's perfect. Blueberry! I don't careeee. CHUCK BASS IS HOT! beats Nathenial now :) I love youuuuuuu xD I know. Looney in action :) Oh. Chuck is also a player :) Girls are his toys. Blair is an exception.

7:57 PM

"Sometimes, The Best Thing To Do Is To Wrap Your Arms Around Each Other One Last Time And Let Go" - Gossip Girl.

I feel hungry. Damn. I just watched 3 episodes of Gossip Girls and Daniel is having an affair with Miss Carr. WTF! I knew she liked him. She was so jealous the moment Serena introduced them. Okay. Enough gossiping. I'm hungry and I should be studying right now. Dinner isn't even here yet. Gosh. There's no water yet. I need to sue someone now. NOWW!

Its funny. The only thing I do is whine to my friends. I'm like that whiny sister you never had. Especially to Blueberry. Which reminds me. (Nevermind about it for now) All I whine about is 1) my brother 2) my weight 3) my studies (which I dont exactly care about right now) and 4)everything else that doesnt please me. I know. I'm such a brat. All I do is EAT, WHINE, SLEEP. Which makes me more of a pig right now. No wonder my butt feels a fewpounds heavier....

7:14 PM

Physics. I think I did okay. But I think I'm more confident that I might do better than my friends than getting good results. I know. How stupid. But whatever la. Paoer 3 was somehow easy. But like half the class messed it up cause they din't read the question. Neverminds. The thing that still haunts me is Chemistry. That bloody guilt are on my hands now. But THANK GOD that Physics and Chemistry are over :) YAY!!!

There's no water supply!! =.= FINE! :) I'll go watch tv for a while :) and think of somewhere to go for dinner :)

If someone was to invade my thoughts, they'll say "OMG. What has this girl been thinking about?" HAHAHAH! I wonder. What do people think about. Or day dream. Its definitly different. But HOW?! And like. have you seen everything in this really different way? Like you're outta this world? OMG. I'm CRAPPING! :) Proves how happy i am! Somehow. I crap most when I'm happy! xD ( i think )

Listening to Se7en's Come Back To Me Part 2 :) i know. its old. but i love it :)

2:35 PM

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Pain is so much better than feeling that false smile plastered on a face. I've lost my comfort zones. I know. I was too dependant on them. Now its back to square one. I wonder why cant coming here be as nice as being there. Its an obligation to come here but I enjoy it there so much better. Even with a sea of people here, its better to be alone there. The grass is always greener on the other side? WTVR. Its not exactly true. Somehow all these feelings burried in me just makes me wanna be better than you. I'll never be like you. And I'm glad that you're going off! I've been alone for too long that your company just makes me sick. In everyway. Thanks for putting up with me but I've had more tormenting moments with you than you with me. And also, thanks for always pretending that it never hurt you because its harder for me to accept that fake smile and put up with your fucked up attitude. FYI, you're more fucked up than ever. If there's a last promise I'll ever have to make, it'll be. That I'll never shed a tear for you or anyone else having their characters be like yours. Well, another update, Chemistry just died under the tip of my pen today :) Anyways. enough of fucked ups and fucktards.

THANKS OWEN! :)

4:18 PM

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OUCH! look at those muscles xD

anyways. this post is dedicated to my anger. I'm letting everything out now. So yeah. Beware of foul words :) WAIT! there's only one thing I feel happy about today : my essay. One word essay: CHOCOLATES (!) :)

the rantings:

CANT YOU JUST LET ME DO WHAT I WANT?! ITS MY FUCKING EXAMS! GRR. FUCKER! WONDER WHO IS ON HOLIDAYS NOW! sheesh. I mean. If I wanna go for my tuition tomorrow. why cant you just send me?! its rather mean to make someone who is not obligated to cancel their plans just for me right?! omg. I so cant stand this. Why wont the government make 16 the legal age to get a driving license?! its not like drinking! god damn it. when I get my driving license (blabbering about what i would do when i get my driving lisence. you'll know how it goes)

2:28 PM

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I just realised something about myself today. I DONT have a favourite artiste. If you ask me, who is my idol and all, I'll blank out. I love the korean music industry. But I dont stalk them nor do I get all their latest songs. Its just when I'm bored, I'll try to find something new. The closest to LOVE would be Big Bang. Next to that would be Super Junior. I dont exactly have an english favourtie either. Cause everything that I have right now is.. something I listen to almost ALL THE TIME. Here's like my favourtie play list. Just names of artiste. All American Rejects, The Pierces, Lisa Loeb, Owl City, Sarah Maclachlan, Katy Perry, G Dragon, Colbie Callait, Taylor Swift.. there's a few more. But among these few, I dont have a LOVE. the best song so far is.. Vanilla Twilight and I Wanna (top 2) xD

Anyways. God. I feel like a bumm :) haha! well. tomorrow is the last day :) you know. I feel everything people do just reminds me more of you. Everytime I wanna forget that chapter of my life, everything comes back. Its never gonna go! I know. Thats life. Whoops. Its almost 3am. Think I'll read something informative before I go to sleep. Shut Up! Its the exam period! I hate this. I hope I dont get spects till the day I die.

You know. I think. Everyone is changing. But I know. Not all changes are meant to be like perfect. People change for the better but some just wants to make a huge round without realising. Anyways. I think EVERYONE is changing. Am I too? I dont know. But I dont exactly like them. Its making everything so cold. And its coming from every direction. Oh my eyes are bloodshot red. Think I should get going soon :) Its the caffein :( 2 cups of coffee and some tea. That was energizing :P

2:18 AM

the bones has many fish :) in the fever for finals. Not a good thing. I'm starting to sneeze too much. And eat. I just had icing cake :) from ipoh :) my favourite cake shop :) got it everytime i went there when i was a kid :) now, i'm grown up. Friends. Party. And all. But beneath this lady. Is a real immature girl. All i wanna do. Is argue and make noise :) i argue about everything. Almost. Even when i dont know what i'm saying xD thats when i sound really ridiculous :) oh oh. I wore high heels today :) i feel tall. A head taller than my mummy :) oh oh . And i forgot. Happy belated 9th anniversary! :) 8 letters, 3 words. Say it and i'm yours (you wish!) :)

12:30 AM

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! :)

one of the pictures with you actually smiling :)

anyways, sorry we havent met up in a long time.

yesh. me fault.

but look at the bright side.

we're still bestfriends! xD

okay. well. you're 17! :) omg.

get your driving license!

haha. your birthday present. has been delivered.

A BUNDLE OF... *have you opened it?!*

anyways. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to Ashwin. happy birthday to you! :) *applause* blow your 17 candles! :)

weeeeeelllll. I'll text you later la :) have a blast XD loves ! :)

5:22 PM

root of all problems : family (only the indirect ones)
they're useless (sometimes). all the do is make people feel obliged to : love them. help them when they're in need. spend time with them. sacrifice.

and you have to do all these even when you hate them to the gut, regardless of how (un)close you are to them just because of the word RELATIVE, even when EVERYONE knows they're not worth a second of your time

the worst part. its hard to say NO. why? cause they're FAMILY. they're RELATED =.=

i'm going to school tomorrow just for PJ and to pass up a book. WTF =.=

i hope what i'm doing now is worth it.

4:27 PM

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sleepy sleepie :)
okayh. Here goes. Red Hair, Red Eyes, Red Face, Red Skin. Red Lips and Red Roses :)
Me starting to crappie.
Blabber much. Me need me beautie sleepie.
Throw! Smash it! Crash! Burn! :) heheeeee. i'm on my throwingspree :)

You're like the sun in my life. You make me melt. then you take me away from everything that i have :)

10:54 PM

Vanilla Twilight :) thank you Julian!
I dont effing care anymore :)
Yes, you can go to hell with you and your useless *toot*
I hate a bitch. Guess why! :) cause she's a bitch :)
Why do people pretend to be stupid?
I'm wasting time again.
This is the worst post EVER.
I'm starting to love Add Maths. HONESTLY! hahahhahahahhahahahh NOT FUNNY!
I feel like smasing my phone(s)
I thought YOU CARED! proves you're just like EVERYONE ELSE.
hmmmmm... lets seeee. I LOVE... school. NOT!!
I dreamt about zombies =.= tooooo much plants vs zombies.
I look fat in baju kurung xD
SOMETIMES, I WISH EVERYONE WOULD JUST SHUT UP.

I wonder what people think about me. This thought is a total waste of time, but seriously. I mean like. before this, i hardly said a word, but now that i CAN say something, i just say it out of pure random emotion, of wanting everyone to shut up. but do people think that, just because i CAN say it now, i do it, when before i couldnt do it, i dint give a damn but just join in the rest of the people making noise? get it?

4:33 PM

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YOU JUST MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CRYING.

okay. poeple!
i'm blogging again! =.=
oh, what joy.
hmm.

11:19 PM

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honestly, i dont have to mood to update my blog right now.
but the most recent things that happened. ISSSS..
that i went to Hana's house for RAYA! and it was.. good.
God i love the rendang her mum cooked :P
but i've gotta go. do my own stuffs now.
yes. i'm depressed. i've been a bumm
i hope i dont get the mood to come online till my exams are over
xD

wells, if there's anything interesting, i'll post it through my phone :)
i'll be invisible for the next whole month.
:) dont miss me too much :)
there are times, where i feel like throwing my phone against the wall.
SERIOUSLY.
but i'll never do that.
i even hate it when i fall asleep with the phone by my side and find it on the floor the next morning. GRR!

anyways. Byes, my sayangs :)
oh. if there's anything, get them from hana's and su ann's blog.
and AND AND AND.
i'm soooo sorry. for those people who i havent linked.
LOL! especially cynthia and jess xD
i'm sooo freaking lazy to link people. i'll like you guys when i've changed my layout kay :)

SOOORRRYYY !!!! :)

see ya'll around!

9:44 PM

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WELLL!!!! yesterday was a BLAST. let me tell you what happened :) starting from. YESTERDAY MORNING :)

I got up at about 8.30am, played a round or two of plants vs zombies, then i got ready to go out :) -some effing few pimples popped out of NO WHERE! i mean NO WHERE! i was like OMFG! i really need to regulate my sleeping times before school starts.
Grace came around 10am, picked Ten Son up from the train station and headed to Sunway Pyramind. - in the car, on the way, it was lotsa talking and catching up. then questions about the agenda of the day came up - What!? we're going to redbox? i thought we're just gonna go for movies or something.
Never mind. We headed to starbucks, got Grace's friends and went to redbox :) LOTSA awkwardness around because I hardly knew anyone there. Had an ice breeaking session, eating, dancing, singing. I snuck out with Kah Yan, Esther, Amelia and Joey to go jalan jalan in pyramid and escape from the awkwardness. Got a present for Grace and Amelia on the way. And we saw Richmond. I mean I thought I was the only one who knows him there but apparently, he goes to the same church as Esther, Amelia and Joey. WOW. I know SMALL WORLD.
Anyways. Went back. Saw Jeet. And somehow he got me singing. yes. WTF. I hate singing in crowds. Especially since I had that 'SOAR throat' that never recovered since last year. - yes, i remembered EVERYTHING clearly. Disneyland, sleepless night in the bus and hotel. Went bugging people with Mas and Sebastian in out Yukata :) - back to reality!
The songs went from 50 Cents to Celine Dion, from the living to the dead. you know who I'm talking about. Oh and I got a 'birthday gift' got Grace and Leanne. It was more of a dare to finish up a bottle of gooey sour stuff. but somehow. Leanne said it was sweet xD
Moved on to jalan jalan at about 3 something till about 7? Watched Gamer. I swore I'll never sit beside Aaron in the movies. How I wished I dint swear that out lout cause it was just Scary in the cinema xD wtvr. The movie was OKAY. the action and all were good I guess but it was just LOTSA shooting,slaying, killing and programming and all. THATS IT! =.=
Went to camwhore at Asian Avenue and I had Takoyaki! WOOOTTSS! haha. One of my favourite things that I had in Japan besides Nato, Zaru Soba, Miso Soup. -I should stop talking about Japan :)
Went to Leanne's house, her grandma took us to Grace's house then went for some dinner and talked the weirdest stuffs ever. I mean we're all 16 except for Ten Son who was the only 15 year old and the only guy. What do you think we talked about? xD
Grace's mum sent me back home and thats about yesterday. Did LOTSA cathing up and meeting new friends. you know. I havent actually seen Grace in like 3 years! and i havent been to her house in like. 4 years! i really need to keep contact with my primary school friends :)
Anways, came home. started texting - well, i was texting Ash the whole time I was there. Came online, talked to some friends, took my bath, continue chatting with my friends. I dint even get to play Plants vs Zombies okayh! went to sleep at about 12.30pm.
NEXT MORNING (today) ; SOMEONE was knocking my door at the crack of dawn. I thought it was my maid. So i shouted la 'APA?!!?!' and NO ONE answered. The person just kept knocking in that EXTREMELY annoying way. I MEAN. it was long, continuous and it wasnt exactly that loud. I was like complaining. Mumbled some words but my MUM heard it from outside. it was HER knocking on my door. it was HER who dint answer me. and she almost killed me for what I said. anyways. she got me up to follow her out =.= - texted Ash. then looked at the clock. wtf. 8.48am =.= might as well go out for breakfast also la. since i cant go back to sleep anyways.
I'll post the pictures LATER! :)

2:39 PM

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I cheated on you. You cheated on me. We both cheated on each other's twin. Drowned in guilt for the past two years, now its finally out :) now, i'm gonna get a clone :) - Barbie and Ken :)

anyways. i need a new game! plants vs zombies are too addictive. grrrr. richie is playing dinner dash. never really liked that game xD hmm. i wanna.. i wanna.. i wanna..

-i should learn to shut uppp

-ASHHHHHHHH! lets go out :) gahhh. i havent seen you in AGES!

this isnt exactly a post. xD i'm just being random now. i'll probably delete this later. i wanna go makannnnn. - watch this piggy in action :)

10:11 AM

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I cant seem to find a word to describe Bill. He's so perfect in everyway. I mean. He lives to protect and love Sookie. And he makes a good parent i guess by teaching Jessica. But she's just too stubborn so i dont blame him. And he's like. hot? HAHA! especially in Season 2 :) someoneeee.. gimme the whole season 1 and 2 :P ahha. then i've got Gossip Girls, Season 2 and 4 Seasons of House to finish watching :) and probably.. 3 Season of Heroes? :)

1:35 PM

somehow. after watching some videos of Taguchi Junnosuke and G Dragon, they both seem to have a resemblance. maybe its the blonde hair. but G Dragon just reminded me of Taguchi :) I'm gonna go blonde one day! watch me! :) haha. Ash, i dont care. you're my blondie partner :)

1:08 AM

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fusion of music? Sibling rivalry. He's worth killing :) skinned and fed to the vultures :) left to rot under the cruel weathers of the arctic. Haha. Fish. :) anyways people. Yes, i'm trashing my brother on my blog :) he's a useless arse. Good for nothing piece of meat :) see. I'm a good sister :) every brother is worth trashing, especially this one :) anyways. Shopping postponed. We've got guests today.. Grr. XD

12:29 PM

i realised that my friends are really great. no matter whats :) they're even good at taking pictures. well. something about pictures. is that. anything and everything is photogenic? and everything just goes with her flow, kan? i mean. sometimes, the pictures just turns out funny when you try so hard. i guess since its a form of art, you just need to be creative and random :) effort is definitly needed if you're actually going to make it your career. but nevertheless, it must be something you enjoy :)

anyways. i somehow found myself listening to G-Dragon. so much for criticizing his gay looks. no offence. but last time, he really looks gay with his pony tail and weird choices of hats. sometimes, it looks like he's wearing a racoon. but now, i'm finding his blonde hair attractive eventhough it actually looks fake. and i know its been some tiime since he went solo and realeased the song 'heartbreaker' but i finally had the mood for his music :) and my music source is back on so i'm gonna mass download G-D. :)

i'm suffering from insomnia again :( which is bad cause i was hoping to get some sleep. tomorrow mummy is planning to go shopping :) i wanna find some dresses for the upcoming weddings parties and some shoes :) OH. and presents tooo.. somethingi should ALWAYS REMEMBER. (which i never do. and it sucks cause i really dont know what to give. sometimes, i even forget to give the presents and it just sits in my house.. and just sits and sits and collects dust.) which reminds me. i know its kinda like.. 3 hours and 10 mins late but happy birthday, WeiYang and my lil cousin all the way in Malacca :)

i was bored la just now, so i decided to text people, and Sue Jane is coming to KL tomorrow :) which is a good thing but i dont think i'll be able to see her cause she'll be in mid and i'll be in klcc. but i think i'll see her when i go back to ipoh. (man, i miss the times we had there. i mean since they can drive and all, we all go out to the park and do weird stuffs, go to the mall and celebrate chinese new year together! :) along with.. Joy and Ee King. Leroy and Xuan xu was busy this year so i dint see them but i still had fun and i miss it! :) and my other plan for this holidays is - going out with my babe! :) grr. its been months since i last saw Ash and he just made me realise how much i want grey eyes and starbucks with him - he's got blue and hazel eyes XD Julian is having fun despite his PMR coming up xD how i miss form 3. now its just Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry and Physics =.=

hmm. i wanna have streaks of honey blonde and/or hot pink on my hair after spm :P and a tattoo. grr. I'm dragging someone along with me :)

btw, people. sorry for like being so unresponsive on msn xD sometimes i just either dont feel like talking of i'm just doing something else. okayhs? :)

i think i've just spill out a few hours of thoughts out :)

2:57 AM

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i find myself GUILTY!

i just cant stop indulging in chocolates and i finished a bottle of pringles yesterday :(

hmm. i dont know why the sudden craving. and laziness. and i watched another korean movie today. grr. i know. shoot me. sue me. send me to jail. i watched 'the naked kitchen'. about a love triangle and this girl cheating on her husband :) me likeyy. and the girl was having an affair with Joo Ji Hoon. omigah. i havent seen any of his shows after 'Goong'. feels good to see him again acting. gah. he's so darn freaking tall and thin! grrr.. yes.i'mhavinggreeneyes..

12:17 PM

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boo is just damn freaking cute :)

anyways, going to school today was - satisfying? XD haha.

hmm. there's nothing much about today - boring - watch tv - tried to do add maths - i need more motivation - grrr. ended up thinking about the sauna and gym more often than not.

:) MOON CAKES :) not that i'm a big fan of one, but its nice to see the moon cakes getting stocked up in the fridge :P

hmm - i think my msn messanger got hacked today :(

which means - change of playgrounds, SNM :) go read your mail :)

GRRRRR.. I WANNA GO TO KUANTAN!!! - and EVERYWHERE! ( and i WILL!)

hmm. i miss the beach.

everyone just have to get married before my finals, dont they?

grrrr. i'm gonna start biting.

chocolates & pastries = irresistable :)

my current condition

- have heavy eyebags

-very visible pimples - from all the staying ups and chocolate feasting

-got fatter - pigging out on chocolates and pastries

-half broken from everything.

-glad to be able to get rid of some disturbing problems :) WHEEEE!

9:50 PM

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lets start with a few complains of the day. here goes 1) i slept at 12 something last night and woke up at about 2 thinking it was time for school. then i went back to sleep at.. about.. 3! and woke up at.. 5.30. went back to sleep till 6.10, packed my bags, cleaned up and all. Thennn 2) i'm still living on coffee and i think i'm gonna die soon. 3) my maid was VERY nice today. she made me SALAD. then i broke that 'diet' and ate the cakes that were waiting for me in my room. on my table where i'm suppose to study =.= and i was just watching the biggest loser. they make me feel so useless, fat, lazy, like a piece of pork and like a potato couch! grrrrrrr..

Anywaysss.. SNM :) welcome back to the world! - where there's internet connection! - which is almost everything xD - cause. without it, you lose me xD - i so dont make sense and sound like a freaking bimbo. grrrr.

today just made me freakier. i never did my maths homework. like seriously. 3 years of not doing maths homework in secondary school. not including those times in primary school where i never got a single word or math equation my math teacher was teaching (excluding std 6) and like today, all of a sudden, i'm like some freaky maths person and i actually did most of my work =.= and like. i hate exercise books. dont expect me to pass them up on time. i prefer doing my stuffs on testpad :) so everything i need and want will always be in my file - now i've gotta bring two of them to school EVERYDAY. but whatever right? xD

OH! and my source of music is.. down.. i cant download anymore songs for now till i dont know when. but at least i've done downloading all the All American Reject's songs and Goo Goo Dolls :)
Listen to these few songs (to SNM) - Another heart calls (AAR) -Change your mind (AAR) - Sunshine (AAR) - Before its too late (GGD) - I'll be your crying shoulder (GGD) - Name (GGD) - Dawson's Creek's theme song (GGD) (there's another one by Lisa Loeb)

funny how i can seem to write my whole life's story out in my blog and keep a diary at the same time and still find things to talk to people about. hidden talent? xD

3:35 PM

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good morning, people! :)

i know, its not the right time to actually blog right now, but 1) i'm skipping school cause 2) me mummy woke up lateee and 3) i'm blogging now to prove that i woke up early with intentions of going to school. look at the bright side. i'll be missing a day of school where i'd need to wear a tie xD

6:35 AM

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here's some pictures on the water balloon fight :)

love this picture <3>

we love hugs :)

cool candid :)

wet!

water balloon fight.

1.2.3.4. please get out the front door
5.6.7.8 everybody, lay your eggs
-farah sandralina-

anyways, most of the pictures are here :)

tempted to skip school again. but i'm going to prove to tiara that i'm more than a bumm so i'll just take a cup of coffee, and go to school :) then i've got interact. (LOL) someone, just kill me already xD

anyways. here's a cycle. called the CHOCOLATE CYCLE.

it starts when

1) people are depressed and people know that chocolates are anti depressants. so

2) they just start pigging out on chocolates when they get depressed. but

3) eating chocolates means increasing the intake of calories. which would make people fat. and being fat is another depressing thing (especially in a girl's life) so moving on to

4) people eat more chocolates to UN depress themselves xD

5) then the whole cycle repeats again.

its not getting anywhere, right? xD

and the only thing i've been taking these few days are : noodles, chocolates, chips and more carbonated drinks =.= - see wei john, this is where all the fat comes from :P

gah.. today was kinda breezy. warm. but my fingers are like frozen again and i keep shivering :(

anyways. i think i did enough posts today. so.. yeah. i guess i'll be officially sighning off for the night :)

XOXO - happy birthday, ann. MUAX!

11:16 PM

something i realised about myself is that i'm such a narcissist. and that i'm so cooped up in my own world. so much so that the most visited webpage is blogspot. and i check my blog EVERYDAY.

and it somehow concerns me of what people think sometimes.
i mean sometimes people say its not important what people see you as, but what you see yourself as. but sometimes, like you're sitting in a restaurant. and people just come and go through the doors, obviously it catches attention. especially when the doors have bells. and when you look at the people going through it, you comment:
ew, look at the bad, you could rob a bank! ;
he's so darn girly ;
omg! look at her shoes! ;
look at his hair! its purple ;
OMG! how'd he know my favourite drink is green tea?! ; ( referring to a guy that had green hair which most probably used to be 'outstanding', 'striking', 'special'. which became the colour of my favourite tea - green tea. due to bad maintenance)

those things la. but those arent the only comments that people give. like to celebrities.
*please dont take this as an offence*
but people give comments like.
SHINee look like dogs with that har style. and JH was wearing that freaking dye shirt =.=" ;
Gah, she had her breasts done, wonder how she can look at what's ahead of her ;
omg. that dress look so stripper like! :) ;

okayhs. so the thing i was wondering was like, what do people say about me when i walk through those doors?
she doesnt have a good posture. so sloppy ;
she's so fat and she's wearing that. you can see her tummy bluge out;
her hair is so messy;
she shows off too much;
i wonder where's she working ; (yes, i got it from my mother's friend)

you know. i used to think. who the hell would wanna read this crap - my blog.
but surprisingly, there are people who read my blog and ask me questions personally. and like goldfish, he asks me to explain stuffs xD okayhs. well.. the ones that i know who reads my blog is; waywen, weijohn, hana, suann, sylvia, ashwin, vivianna, blueberry, and my darling SNM ( clown-ey) :) - <3>

1:04 PM

Ann's pre birthday was a success! :)

this was how everything started. we said grace and started eating :P

and farah's 'toast' =.= i mean. seriously wei!!! :)
next year, we are all to be present at EVERY EVENT.

and if there's a prom, the last dance will be between the 7 of us. we only can save the second last one for our boyfriends- if we ever have one.

this was candid :P

masked models :)

happy masquerading :P

ziemaaa :P

azimahhh!! my '50' year old senior xD

:) masquerade. without costumes :P

firstly, syl looks like a stick (she said it herself.) and it looks wrong :P

su ann doesnt speak evil. but gives away kisses :P

lady gaga! :P

slut much. but its her trademark :)

for someone who's allergic to alcohol, its a huge leap :P

she's stuckkkk.. :P happy birthday baby :)

hana and syl :)

happy proving your non innocence, ann :)
she was trying to slut dance. but farah can do it sooo much better :P

honestly, there are many more pictures and the one event missing is the water balloon fight :) wait for it from hana's camera. and the dancing on the chairs :) and the truth of dare. (lets keep that BETWEEN us! )

haha! anyways

Happy birthday babe :)

i <3>

my bitch.

you (all) will always be one of my top priorities :)

muaxxx!

i hope everyone had fun.

i know its not a lot of people that were there,

but i think its good enough that we had the

most important people there.

many thanks to...

Hana - for planning and inviting. and getting the stuffs.

Pamela - for the cake (sorry, i dint get a picture of it)

Sylvia - for bringing the junkfood and getting stuffss.

Jasmin - for the company :)

Farah - for being a total slut

Lastly.

Su Ann - for being our friend :) and bringing the sparkling juice xD

9:17 AM

what if the truth yesterday, became a lie today? Just think about it :)

8:07 AM

my bundle of joy, i need you. I'm Not feeling too well.

7:58 AM

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why does it feel like i'm having a celebration during a funeral?

cant help it, right?

if all i need is to clear my head and move on, no point wasting time, right?

so. i guess everything is cleared?

now.

i've gotta clean my room.

put on some manicure.

choose an outfit.

and everything is set.

feels better after letting everything out and 10 hours of sleep :)

hmm. no doubt, my feelings are still scattered.

12:48 PM

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i told a lie today.
just one to make me and everyone feel better :)
but the truth is, i'm aching.

its time for me to wake up.
wake up to everything around me.
what's been happening, what i missed, what most likely would happen.
its hard to wake up knowing that today is just another day to get through.
with nothing to look forward to.

yes, i'm just crapping :)
selfishness.
the memories of what happened the first time are coming back,
but now, it hits me with a bigger impact.

of all the 1200 songs i have,
nothing really suits my mood now.

2:42 PM

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someone needs to fuck themselves right now.
Effing stressed and there's nothing that can relieve it.
And i seem to not be doing a shit about it.
I'm finally going to sleep
Finally. Stupid eyebags that makes me look like i've been someone's punching bag. Fucking pimples that look like a piece of shit.
Officially depressed xD GEETHA!!!!!!!! :) i need a hangman.
And my bundle of joy.

11:32 PM

Time is running short.

I hate my life running on caffein.

Feeling like a real lifeless zombie

That just finished 4 kerja amals

and is currently working on 5 tugasans.

Lifeless piece of shit!

Eff exams! :)

Safe the trees, baby!

1:38 AM

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colours! :)
i know its not a good piece.
but whatever la. i seem to like drawing swans xD

lazy boness. go away! :P

seems like i'm the one clinging onto nothing. but falling isnt a bad feeling. hitting the ground and coming back up is even worse.

i've got biscuits, my phone, coffee, ipod, my bundle of joy and my books (which are still stacked up!) what else do i need? motivation? hmm. Blueberry. thats your job xD for the next two years, you'll have the honour of motivating me :P hmm. Clowney.... ILY!!! :)

i'm hyper without even taking coffee xD

9:56 AM

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-my life is like this picture i guess. colours all jumbled up. just like my feelings which are all mixed up.

-and the brush, which represents me, is the odd one out.

-i cant believe i just compared myself to a box of colour pencils! XD

-i thought it was mere confusion. dint know when it actually turned into numb ness.

-you're my bundle of joy :)

-hmm. if i would pick a colour to describe my day, it'll be. blue! :) cause i was just feeling blue.

9:55 PM

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Can you keep a secret?

I wanna date add maths. But it detests me.

Ash wanna have intercourse with Chemistry. Bet its working out.

Physics is such a turn off. The on switch never works.

I feel like dancing. Wanna join me in my waltz?

I'm a huge bumm. And I have a huge one too.

Eyebags are such curses. They're always followed by unavoidable acne.

Feeling the pressure. Of people, taking their leave and of exams, entering the doors with a cold welcome.

Promises are meant to be broken, no? Then I shall break this.

Secrets are suppose to be kept, yes? My lips are sealed. But I dont know how long I can bottle everything before the glass breaks.

I've got a pea brain. Very bad. Useless memory. A pain in the back for every princess.

Eternal beauty. Trust me. It exists. In the hand of a boy who knows how to appreciate what's in front of his eyes. But sometimes, its still not enough.

I wanna go to Bangkok and Hong Kong. Guess why.

Its going to take a long time to reconstruct my life.

I'll hold my tears back. Just to see you happy. But you dont know what happens in silence.

Lets work towards being the envy.

8:41 PM

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hmm. flash back?
thursday : i woke up at like 6.55 am? stared at the sky for about 10 mins. then stared in the mirror in my room for another 10 mins. then i went to the bathroom and stared in the mirror for the next 10 mins. got ready, went to the market. yes. lotsa things to see and buy actually xD
anyways, i baked a cake. yeah. not my thing but i was in central and i had a really random feeling of baking.

the cake turned out. not bad for a first time solo. just a bit dry, but i got good comments. guess i'll bake sometime soon :)

anyways. nothing much. just usual. watched gossip girls. and.. thats about it. !
hmm. well. the pictures of the cake isnt up yet. so i'll just take my time.

i dont know. guess i dont ever wanna know. hmm. i'll make sure i leave. i dont care where. but i will. i dont know what i'm thinking about much, just another random thought. about leaving :)

6:50 PM

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:)
Life is just full of secrets.
I should just try to actually lessen them. Its killing me inside out. Who's ready to see black insides? Gooey. Disgusting. Ugly. Naked. Totally. And i think its time i really hit my head on the wall. Probably i'll decide to hit my head a bit too hard, and you can see me next in my funeral. Thats my date to everyone. I know. I owe you.. Dates. Lots of them. So, claim it on the day i die. In my funeral. Its totally okay. You can write your love letters in my diary :)

11:28 PM

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sometimes,

i dont see the point.

i'll never get it.

what's the use?

seriously.

6:59 PM

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nothing can get worse than this.

then again.

nothing could get better.

hmm.

how long would this agony have to last?

the last time it stayed for 2 weeks.

which was literally hell.

anyways.

all i have of you are memories and stories which people talk about.

is there really nothing else that would remind me of you?

still keeping that smile on my face :)

9:02 PM

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you know what.
i actually forgot about what i wanted to blog about.
hmm. but i think it has something to do with yesterday.

something that made me happy: SMELLS.
-schanny and james punya spagetti.
-famous amos.
-scented candles. -vanilla
-my soap! -lavender
-everything that smelt like lavender and vanilla.

anyhows. hmm. you knw. if i had to say goodbye to leave this hell i'd say my time has served me well - sum 41, over my head- which is kinda true.

-trying to restrain myself from cursing :)

10:22 PM

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went to watch Up!

had a cup of Dark Mocha from Starbucks,

Having a bad headache for no reason.

Banging my fingers on the keyboards

Finishing my assignments.

Headache...

Gah.

6:54 PM

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there's never one day where i go on without doubting.

11:16 PM

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listening to hilary duff's album :)
Haven't had the feel of listening to it in so long. Haha.

Went out, bought a random pair of heels! From crocs. Lol! My mum's one was comfy so i thought i'd get one myself xD

The getaway
Beat of my heart
So yesterday.
Metamorphosis
Break my heart

12:32 PM

history does repeat itself again.
Dont you just wish you could destroy it. And it'll never come back, then you'll never have to feel that pain again?

Wounds take time to heal.
But i seem to fall and hurt myself at that same spot. Time after time. Guess i never learn much, right? So even if it healed, it would leave a scar. A big ugly one to remind me of how stupid i can be.

Everyone makes the rules as they go. To keep themselves safe. Or maybe it just the feeling of being in control. Ever thought of what might happen if nothing goes according to plan?

I want my clown back. I dont care. Where shall i meet you? On the Bridge of Fate? Hmm. Ash, i'm ready to dig my grave beside yours. Before that, i need to dye my hair dirty blonde, get blue contacts and get baptized by a vampire. That way, i'll die pretty and have that eternal beauty. I'll be the center of envy :)

Can vampires drink alcohol?
How stupid would we look if we shared a pair of coloured contact lens? XD

Its over now, and i'm fine :)
Wait. Thats only half true.
The other half is in agony.

This is how much i love life :)
Even when life is being a total bitch :)

2:25 AM

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haha! I just found out that only 2 people from my class went to school on saturday! I wouldn't be in class even if i went anyhows. Still countdowning to tuesday :) then i'll get my dinasour back. Haha. I'm somehow getting bored of all my songs wei. Even with 1200 songs in my ipod and about 300 in my phone. This is so not working out. Something is really wrong. Hmm.

Ash should record one of his many songs he makes up when he's bored. He'll at least get 2 albums sold. Cause fai and i bought it. And the rest probably would've bought it because of the cover xD

I need a new story book! cant get one till my finals are over :( or maybe till spm is over :( i would have forgotten how to read by then xD

Still burning a little inside. But it was nothing compared to this morning. So I'm not going to complain about it.

I cant wait for next week! Holidays... Gah. I hope i'll be able to go out and all. Birthday parties, breakfast, catching up with friends and movies! :) haha. Thinking about it makes me happy. (wonder if mummy would scold me for going out too much or complain that i'm not studying enough. Which is half true. Or half a lie. )

:)

4:47 PM

shobana! I was totally right about me getting sick and not being able to attend the concert! Only that by 4, i got a fever.

Pam and yew weng! Haha. I miss you guys but i cant go out with you all today :( pam, i know that i haven't really spent any time with you ever since you came back from london and i dint go to school on friday and saturday. Though i really wanted to :( we still owe yew weng lotsa things.. XD

I haven't visited you blog or texted you in a long time. Hmm. But thanks for the reminder this morning, ashwin assokan :) i laff you too :)

The scenes replay themselves in my mind everytime i close my eyes.

9:06 AM

forgotten, stolen, burning, confused :)

8:38 AM

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happy birthday, Vivianna! :)
Love ya loads :)
I'll give you your present tomorrow, kay xD
Muaxx

11:30 PM

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my computer will be gone for the next i dont know how long. Means, no msn. Really tempted to exchange this phone with my mum. Cause it has the msn installed in it :) thank goodness there's still connection to the internet although on msn. But i'll live. Haha. Anyway. I think my ipod is kinda weird. Its being rebellious! Its not turning on! Gah. Time to call the mac people. Anyways. Today's kiwanis event was really fun, although i was really tired. I only had about 4 hours of sleep okay, and i had to walk around the whole place. Which isn't too big but if you're required to walk around it a few times, it is very tiring. Anyways, promoted a game called million dollar baby. With.. Alex. Ivan. And. Christian. I think that's his name. XD wont really bother explaining how the game really works.

Today, is happy day :) as if everyday isn't but. Today, its somehow really fun. XD although i'm feeling happy, i dont feel like camwhoring.

I wanna come home and sleep! I'm so tired. My complexion just got worse. hmm. I just wanna sleep. I tried taking a nap. But i think i woke up cause the weather was too hot! People, plant a tree a day! Seriously, it'll totally make a hell lot of difference!

Anyways, i'll be going out for a party now. Please hope its fun.

I love my darling phone.

6:42 PM

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SNM, I miss my playground.

I wonder why I gave you a nickname in the first place xD

was there suppose to be a reason?

10:27 PM

4:38 PM

7 marker pens, 3 highlighters, 3 mechanical pencils, 3 ball pens, 2 gel pens, 2 rulers, 2 erasers, box of lead and small handwriting.

everything is just going too fast. i told meself that i'm not going to be down cause of these things anymore. poeple, see the highly tolerant person who would bash you up if you annoy her for more than 5 seconds. HAHA!

i'm just crapping about la.

i'm not tolerant at all, doubt i'm getting better at it. in fact, its getting worse, but who cares?

but there's no resistance to foul words. xD

and i dont bash people up. Geetha would be all blue black now! xD (she's no where near to annoying actually xD maybe sometimes. but i'm way worse than her)

i'm getting fat and the time when i dont wanna feel tempted by any nice food, Geetha says

"guess what?"

"what?"

"i found marshmallows in my house. i dont know who bought it. i think my mum bought it 2 months ago"

shows me the tupperware of marshmallows and biscuits.

'Geetha, i'm on a diet! i'm fat okayh?"

After 5 minutes,

"Geetha, i'm stealing your marshmallows"

peels it into half.

"HALF HALF! "

"i dont want!"

she eventually eats it.

after another 5 minutes,

"Geetha, i need the cookies"

There's no way for me to be a bullemic or an aneroxic xD

Not that i'm actually thinking about it,. but its just some random thought..

I NEED LONGER LEGS!

flooded with homework, eye rings that scares people ( my pet monkey got scared for a second xD ) and i'm busy again!.. one of the joys of school? xD

the week is coming to an end. AGAIN! which meanss. MOVIES AND A BUSY SATURDAY! :P

haha!! i'm going to have fun! Lets get high :)

for some really unknown reason, i feel happy :)

4:03 PM

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lets go back to japan

missing my long hair. again.

please remind me to NOT CUT MY HAIR AGAIN

I do miss my clown after all

3:35 PM

NG SU ANN

MY SLUT.

my whore.

my bitch.

you're mine.

i heart you, slut..

its weird that we call each other these names.

but if she dint earn the SLUT title,

she'll have to settle with INNOCENT.

3:08 PM

i got my class photo back! i feel like posting it.

but Geetha would kill me! =.=

makes me wanna post it more.

the world is half full of liars.

or half empty of liars.

i'm included in that circle of liars.

but i never lied to you before.

its just anyone but you.

i wish i was more like you.

more like something else i'm not.

but if i was, would you look at me?

what vegetables do people in the antartica eat?

2:46 PM

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Blueberry Cheese Cake got first place.
Moral Script got second place.
where's my clown? :(
i wonder why is this even happening to me. i dint do anything wrong! =.= karma?
i'll make another resolution : get something nice :)
GKG - you owe me! :P - actually, yes, i did miss you xD
dont wanna think about this anymore. giving me a headache that would never go away..
SNM, my clown-ey..
i hope everything goes well :)
hmm.. 2 occasions to look forward to. so.. 2 new dresses? xD -lavender is really getting into me-
conclusion of today : mixed feelings : happy, confused?, but.. not bad. :P
gah. what am i crapping?
i sing the teletubbies theme song every morning now. =.=
omg. i am CHILDISH!
sorry, whore, bitch, slut. i'll do that 'post' tomorrow xD

6:54 PM

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i'll never fall for you, dont worry.

11:36 PM

haha!
this is seriously random.
but, thanks, yang!

I'll dedicate this post to Ash.
the blue-eyed darling.
the best friend who is always full of blonde things to say.
which makes people laugh.
then there's the dark side of him.
the emo side.
xD
the very up to date about koreans.
taeyeon's lover :)

i'll make it a resolution.

to learn to change my blog layout by myself!

10:22 PM

the dinasour became slower.

legal advantages.

illegal advantages.

people take illegal advantages for granted.

but never take legal advantages.

okayh la. the illegal one.

is when you go bargain for cheaper price

and take more.

so you take more than you give.

thats usual.

the legal one.

is where you find a roach in your food,

the only thing the manager does is

gave a free buffet to ONE person.

.say SORRY.

asks if you want any compensation.

and you say NO!

its stupid.

cause you could have gotten a free sharksfin soup.

or abalone.

or fresh oyster.

or birds nest.

some people just dont think.

i'm crazy.

over.

Kris Allen's No Boundaries.

the first song i heard on my birthay.

Eminem's We Made You.

Mika Nakashima's Glamoous Sky.

patience is a virtue?

Sometimes.

what a day, la.

When i need something,

its never there.

When i dont need it,

its always there.

Thats what happened for most of the day.

Monday blues are taking over.

Its going to be a busy day.

Doubt i'll be coming online.

ish.

i wanna quit all my tuitions.

ALL!

not ALL.

but MOST of them

Life is busy enough.

I'm already a zombie.

7:58 PM

EH OH!

-i like lala and pooh-

i've got a massive muscle pain.
and i would like to..
curse the person who stole my counter pain.

massive headache.

lack of sleep?

i need to study :)

what an annoying word.

but whatever la.

going out for very nice dim sum.

most probably going to meet

my mum's friend from sweden.

I'm going to go bloghopping now.

or downloading another 100 songs.

which wouldnt fit into my ipod anymore.

i need a new one!

wait.

i dont.

i'll just put them into my phone!

=.=

i need a new layout :)

i'll be off then.

toodles :)

8:16 AM

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Dinner. Today is damn random.

I had a choice. My brother or parents.

Wanted to go for Thai food but the shop was closed.

Went to Mid Valley and ate Madam Kwan's.

Nasi Bojari :)

Conclusion after dinner :

I should have stayed at home or go with my parents.

Today. Woke up at 5.45am.

i had to be in school my 6.30am.

For BK.
Work was tiring.

But everything was fun.

There was a band playing.

Reminded me of someome.

But i eventually got to know the singer.

haha!

Doubt anyone remembers me.

Cant believe Peter is such a holy person.

dint expect to see him there at all!!

Something reminded me of Emily Chong.

then i thought about all my other primary school friends.

I wonder where they are now.

Bernard Tan, Emmanuel Tan,

Felix, Matthew, Nathan,

Shobana, Zara....

Starbucks.

I had some just now.

Cant really sleep early.

So i'll be blogging, or finding for new layouts.

And facebook.

It feels so rewarding after a long tiring day.

to drink some nice cold drink from Starbucks.

Slut!

I've got a slut.

Her name is Su Ann.

I shall call her, Slutann :)

I was loyal to her.

But she went slutting someone else.

What a Whore!

-farah- xD

The car.

I was in ther car.

Traffic jam.

I decided to look out my window.

Stared at other cars.

Suddenly,

there was a car,

3 guys and 2 girls.

The driver saw me and stared at me.

Then i think he told something to his friends.

They all stared at me.

I wonder what was wrong.

LOL.

So werid.

Then again, the guy in the car was kinda cute xD

Everything has its benefits, kan?

THE HOST!

i wanna read it!

Satisfaction.

Boom Boom Pow.

Everytime i hear these 2 songs,

i go cheer-y

and start repeating the stapes to it

i'll never forget the steps for that cheer :)

how i miss cheer.

feeling weridly happy today.

I was like smiling like some retard

while distrubuting the food and drinks.

Maybe thats what got them

to take it from me in the first place

it became a competition

to see who could distrubute more.

I got 8 :)

enough said.

poeple like to take adventages.

Sometimes, it just becomes too much.

It gets annoying.

Now, everything is beyong annoying.

HAHAHAHAHAH!!!

I dont care anymore.

As long as i'm not doing it,

I dont see why should care xD

my phone.

I wanted to get a screen protector thingy,

and my mum was like.

'how many more years do you wanna use it?'

'2 years? you dont have to get it la.'

forgot about the rest of the conversation.

but she was talking about my n81.

isnt it still like expensive in the market?

Maximum 2 years?

for my phone?

I wanted to exchange my n81 with my mum's music expess

Cause it has msn messenger.

and she dint want =.=

yerrrrr....

I'm still happy with my n81 :)

I was helping out with BK today.

Gave me a thought about religions.

I'm not a religious person.

And God is something that hardly crosses my mind.

But being a free thinker is not a bad thing right?

'm not going against anyone's religion.

I can do anything i want,

marry any religion i want .

Its okayh kan?

I'm so unholy =.=

Today.

Is the first time.

I water the plants without actually killing it.

I dont have green fingers

and for all i care, they can wilt away :P

Being in go green doesnt really make anything better xD

If i were to line up all my plans.

he're how it would look like

1.8.09

La salle install

BB install

BK.

Happy anniversary xD

8.8.09

Kiwanis.

Galven's birthday = Gavin, its pay back :)

Vi's install.

SAS install.

22.8.09

wesley mathodist install.

not a lot.

But too much clashing!

I somehow cant wait to get braces xD

its so weird.

=.=

but seriously.

i cant wait to smile without that weird teeth formation.

and like. i kinda like my teeth.

I wish a had the x ray of it

i like my bottom teeth.

the pattern it leaves when i eat apples are so cute!

and my upper teeth.

Rabbit tooth :P

hahah!

but i would also wanna get rid of it xD

but its damn cuteeee!

I'm being stupidly random today.

Lets run away,

far far away.

Love will take us there,

we'll be okay.

i promised myself

that

i'll never be like that anymore.

i guess, there's just a new beginning

in the middle of no where.

it cant be just a melody on my head.

it must have existed.

i'll watch teletubbies :)

those massive butt holes make me happy :)

i wanna name my future pet

lala, tinkie, dipsy and pooh

TELETUBBIES!

7:30 PM

dreams do come true. Sometimes.
:)

5:29 PM

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happy birthday, choy soon. Sandra, and peng hooi :)

11:30 PM

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GAVIN KYLE GREEN!

you still owe me what you owe me.

i dont care :P

BLUEBERRY CHEESE CAKE WON!!!!

yes, that's the title of my english script.

and it got first place.

dramatically overjoyed. xD

I will update my blog with videos and pictures.

Soon enough.

I'm just a bit lazy to do it now and it seems to take forever.

So i'll try again next time :)

Somehow all my regrets seem to fade away for that little moment.

And its because you're here to take them away.

But if i learn to let go, everything will just come back to me.

I miss Pamela Choi Pui Yue!!!

My PCPY :P

And I miss my SNM.

6:50 PM

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i thought i could trust you. turns out, i was really wrong. well, anyways. thanks for being a pain in the arse.
i miss SNM!!! omigahh.. i suddenly missed you! xD
cheer got cancelled for idontknow what reason. but it was fun staying back again. how i hate it then and miss it now.
i think i should stop it. thinking about it just kills me. knowing its something i'll never get.
i'm regretting. i should have just went. that scene still replays in my mind. all the time.
wondering how much it'll hurt to let go.
i feel scared everytime i get close to you. is there a logical reason for that? thats not suppose to happen.
i look weird.
i never knew it. but she's pretty. but she always looks at her reflection and sees someone plain and boring staring back at her.
i need a life.

7:55 PM

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sorry i took so long to update my blog. i was busy writing scripts,essays and doing my homework.

solve this equation :

sore throat + cough + running nose + headache + sleepy + essays + scripts + homework + lotsa things to do = everything will be fine tomorrow

HARRY POTTER!! TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwww......

anyways. my birthday was a not-bad-'sweet'-16. but i'm looking forward to my 17th more xD

so here's the list of people i wanna thank....... (thank? thank ryte?)

Sofeya Illiyyana (about 9 something?)

Ashwin Assokan (11.54)

Ho Weijohn (12.31)

Hana Neguib (1.01)

Geetha Thiyagarajan (1.43)

Blueberry Cheese Cake (3.28)

Julian Leong (6.43)

Vivianna Assokan. Vivi Ann.

Tiffany Tan

Vivianna's Friends.

SNM :)

John Chua

Ng Su Ann

Owen Lai

Adeline Chan Poh Ann

Richie Lee

Mimi Lim

Kan Yew Weng

My Mum ( yeah. she texted me to wish me happy birthday)

Udang

Evelyn Tan Ee-Lynn

Chen Choy Soon

Beh Jian Fung

Seow Choon Hui

Phua Wei Keat

Chew Way Wen

Kimberly

Pamela Choi Pui Yue

Sylvia Wong Shealeen

and my dear darlings from 4 Science 3

you guys rock :)

i need a class photo! I shall bring my camera tomorrow.

Aqilah Zainul

Atiqah

Paveethra

Lai Poh Yee

Jeyanthi

Kaveena

Diviyah

Chan Poh Yee

Chew Min Chee

Tiara Jane Anchant

Shobana Gabriel

Sharvani

Jess Lee

Joanne Yap

Bavani Rajan

Brigidta De Souza

Ikhma

Sonia

Abilasha

Adeline Chan

Ashwini x2

Suganta

Nas Athirah

Candice Au

Nadia

Mathumathi

Madhavi

Geetha

Vigneswary

Yuhashinee

(I think I'm done. hahahha! i wish i had my name list :P )

i hope i dint leave anyone out.

And All My Sayangs on Facebook :)

Kenny Beh Kwang Teik

Megan Chng

Vivianna Assokan

Beh Jit Hooi

Chen Wai Nee

Carmen Lee Khar Yann

Julian Leong

Ho Zi Lynn

Suganta Mutharasu

Marc Hon

Alex Hee Zhan Zhuyn

Ho Yen Yen

Bue Lim Zhu Ai

Hee Zhan Zhyan

Lydia Ong

Lai Poh Yee

Kan Yew Weng

Nicole Fong

Keaashini Nair

Darius Beh Yun Ji

Kong Jun Ming

Atiqah Najwa

Pamela Choi Pui Yue

Aqilah Zainul

Victoria Ngow

Ashwin Assokan

Thats about it. nothing much happened. Vivi gave me a present (one of the only presents i got. ) And I count the Tiramisu Cake i got from Weiyang a birthday cake ( cause i dint have one ). Japanese Lunch Buffet on Saturday. Ice Age on Tuesday. Delicious Food :)

-happy sweet sixteen-

p.s. pictures will be up SOON!

2:40 PM

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everything is BLUE!
my bag, lil bag for my phone, toe nails, room, sheets, files, purse :)

7:10 PM

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Dont say goodbye unless you really mean it.

4:52 PM

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VIVI! i know you'll be reading this. lol. what's your new url? I cant believe this is a blog post. AND.... is everything okayh?

2:23 AM

Cancer is the first sign in the Water Element grouping. Cancerian people have deep emotions and fathomless longings. Rather than take a risk and put all their energy into something that might fail, they prefer to wait and watch. When the time is ripe they dive in with great speed and efficiency. They are serious, caring, sensitive people with complex psyches.This is a sign that dislikes taking unneccessary risks. When the going gets tough, they are perfectly content to dig in and surround themselves with domestic comfort and security. A wounded Cancerian is not an easy person to deal with. Given the opportunity at the right time, people of this sign cope remarkably well with fame, fortune, and responsibility. Money and a sense of security play an important part in the Cancerian scheme of life.Though careful with money they are kind, generous and thoughtful.At their worse, Cancer children will be selfish, secretive and hold onto past hurts.
They have pretty severe mood swings. When down or depressed, they can become cruel. Like their symbol the crab, they will snap at you when anyone tries to threaten the shell they place around themselves when upset.
You can usually find a Cancer at home. They often have their own special spot or private room. They love to save everything. When they get older, they often will save scraps of paper with phone numbers on it

1:04 AM

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everyone seems to just see things the way they are.
:)

no. i'm not in love ( thats not a total lie)
yes. i do think about people.
i'm tired.
there's no extra literature classes till after literary night :)
i'm gonna be a nerd.
please dont mind me.
sorry babes, i still havent posted the vidoes.
firstly, cause i;m damn malas.
secondly, it takes forever to load it.
and aqilah.....
i havent seen you online yet :P

8:47 PM

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These are really random picture :)

Most of them are candid.

And dont mind my retard-ness.

i'll be posting ALL the videos tonight :)

I look spastic in most of these pictures.

i dont even know what i was doing

i love this :)

i felt like a (cam)whore today.

i dint bring my interact uniform :(

VIVI ANN :)

Geetha finally took a picture :)

Aqilah & Noelle & me :)

Aqilah :)

Tiara :)

a.k.a. Mrs Nick Jonas

CANDID!

konnonnya gonna be a prefect xD

Letitia :)

Farah Sandralina.

blurr la she.

TIFFANY!

PRICELESS :)

my pole dancer :)

5:37 PM

LOL! i'm done with cheer and all.

[ we got second! :) ]

i'm gonna blog and go do my homework :)

these few days hasnt been as great as i thought.

i dont feel like going to school anymore as my teachers are all messed up.

yeah. especially my NEW english teacher.

i mean.

i'm sorry la.

I'm offended that YOU SAID A SHARK IS NOT A FISH!

okayh. FO! FY!

damn.

and you punished me for saying ' adeline, lets listen to her first'

i mean what the eff.

and you treat my whole class like a bunch of 10 year olds.

excuse me?

you draw a frigging fish on the board and ask us, what is this.

and you think we've got some listening problem that you have to give us a 'listening exercise'

what the eff.

i want my former english teacher!!!!

what's wrong with bringing magic colours?

sorry la.

i like colours.

you got a problem with that issit?

jump off mutiara top la.

CPR.

yeah. you need a frigging CPR for yourself.

oh. sorry. i dont know anything about GLOBAL WARMING.

eff me! i wonder what i was doing in go green =.=

so educate me!

the worst thing is that DOT DOT DOT told me i'm over confident with myself.

yeah. i'm sure.

and DOT DOT DOT said aSHARK is NOT A FISH!

AGAIN!

and i got more annoyed with that.

yeah. people refer to it as a mammal.

wtf! i dint know people were so stupid.

i was about to smack the facts onto your face.

thankgod you looked it up. and there you are saying

'a whale is a mammal' god! i learnt that like in standard 1 la

'yeah. and a shark doesnt have the same bone structure as a fish'

GOD I've READ THAT! longer than you did!

and DOT DOT DOT said.

'ya meh? it doesnt have scales also'

IT DOES LA! on this head you stupid doink.

and DOT DOT DOT wants to argue with me that an ENGLISH teacher isnt suppose to know that a SHARK IS A FISH.

cause its SCIENCE.

so you're actually trying to tell me that ART students are stupid?

that art students dont know science and they're suppose to live like that?

doesnt Art students learn SCIENCE at all?

i thought you were from the arts stream.

whatever la.

i'm just wasting my thoughts on you.

people, if you dint know a SHARK IS A FISH, JUMP OFF KLCC!

(anyways, getting second for cheer made my day. so dont ruin it!)

Conclusion :

SOME PEOPLE ARE SO EFFED UP!

5:19 PM

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tired and frustrated.

legs are pain = stood for one hour during chemistry (the whole class did). stood again for cheer practice. walked too much. ran in the field (i missed it)
tired = sleeping past 12 past few days.
i'm not performing for install anymore :)
i dont see the point of going to school anymore. if its not for bio, i would have skipped today and YESTERDAY....
my english teacher is going to change, my malay teacher changed ( i dont think i'll like english as much as i used to)
it feels like a thursday.. ( lets skip school!)

6:25 PM

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(around Christmas)

(1.1.09)

(3.1.09)

I posted these 3 pictures just to say :

I MISS MY LONG HAIR.

I somehow found myself staring into space again, thinking about you.

7:32 PM

Curse of Curves.
Pretty boy (kinda) just makes me think of Jaejeong and Alan.

Looking at the picture makes me like my NOW hair better.

OMG! I just decided to go to school tomorrow. Dang. if it wasnt for Biology, i wouldnt go.

gah. i've gotta sit through 8 frigging periods before i reach bio...

thats the only subject i look forward to on Mondays and Tuesdays.

(i think?maybe i'm exaggerating it xD )

Then I'll start thinking of Mondays again. (not)

I'll just think of Fridays when the day seems much shorter :)

but. damn. i wanna stay home and bumm around. sheesh.

Biology = bloody slavedriver.

science stream = hell.

My life = ruined.

i frigging stayed up till dot-dot-dot am last night

and i wanted to sleep late again tonight to get up late tomorrow morning!

7:08 PM

i dont know how long was this picture but i havent been in the mood to camwhore lately, so i'll just stick with this.

everytime i get a new mechanical pencil, i'll have this nostalgic feeling. (sounds really stupid) yeah. and i just got one yesterday. yes, i do colour coordinate my mechanical pencils but i dont know why yesterday's choice was black. i was choosing between a green (nice and thing but its not a shaker) and a black/white/(god forbid) pink. (shaker. fat. heavy. like the usuals) hahaa.. i took black. (white gets dirty easily. pink makes my pencilbox look out of order) anyways.

i got my FIRST mechanical pencil when i was in STANDARD 2. ( 8 years old. ) yes, i was very happy and proud of it :) as usual, when classmates see something nice, they wanna try to use it (and ask their parents to buy it) it got lost on the third day. everyone was borrowing it and i dont know where it went. (i think i cried) as usual, when i think of standard 2, bernard and emmanual comes into my mind. Bernard was like my super bestfriend and i dont know what happened to him. i called him about once or twice and i lost contact with him after that. and Emmanual, i dont know where on earth he is, the last i heard was that he migrated to Australia. I'm still keeping the watch he gave me, but Bernard left me nothing but memories. (God, i hope you're just somehow 'easy' to find on facebook)

back to reality: there's nothing i can do, yes. i WAS happy. but i think you got SICK of me. thinking of a heavy heart and a heavy head, i'm having... BOTH! i slept at dot-dot-dot AM, got about 4 1/2 hours of sleep. and i feel awake. I think waywen went off a bit later after me, and he slept throughout the day =.=

i was watching 553 just not (astro) (who cares if its national geographic.) it was about mega fishes. this guy was looking for gigantic fished which are GIGANTIC and at one point, it somehow sounded like we was having sex with the fish. i mean. the thing is 250 kilos. and it was barely breathing and that guy was turning the fish around while talking to the camera (omg. wasting so much time. the fish could have died!) and i was like. omg. freaking toot just let it go already. (i love fish :) ) and when he eventually let it go, the narrated the thing with this really sad tone that somehow could have meant 'IT DIED!' or 'someone's dying'.. yeah. he made my day down.

TIME IS PASSING REALLY SLOWLY TODAY

6:00 PM

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANAAAA!!!

(me bestie is growing uppppp)

I love you and thats all there's left to say.

( i mean. i do have many other things to say but, you get my point)

11:22 PM

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Listening to Jason M. ft Colbie C. - Lucky.

I thought that my head was heavy, then i realised that that not it.

Just that my heart was feeling heavy.

Now, its both of it.

Such a beautiful crime.

What a beautiful crime.

11:17 AM

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everything seems nicer now :)

i dont know what happened.

lets keep things this way...

9:40 AM

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Flash back : yesterday, 20.06.09, IU day/carnival.

i got up at 6.30am to go to school. I dreaded it. carried tables and chairs and those stuff to the tent and had a small argument about the placing with someone. and since she insisted that she wanted the isolated place, i got the one near the center of everything and my stall earned 400 bucks. you rock, babes. but the process of earning it was something to die for. my fingers are hurting like shit right now. the skin is like peeling off and those things and i stayed back till 5 something so i helped to clean everything and transport the tables back. omfg. my muscles are aching like shit okayh. seriously! arms, thighs, near the neck, gah. and i feel so sleepy.

I was practically at the stall for like the whole darn day and i hardly got to play anything.At the stall, i was practically killing my muscles and making them bigger and those things by inflating those darn balloons and tying 300 ballons. thank gawd its just 300 okayh? we wanted to do 400! and we earned more than expected.like 4 times more. but after we closed our stall, we went to play somethings and got loads of tokens and i got like.. TIFFANY jewellery! WOOTTT! I'm an expensive girl, babe. but the thing is that i hardly enjoyed myself, i dint even get to take a decent picture with my friends. you people should go to hell for that. but the Tiffany jewellery totally made my day better.

Btw, when i saw we it meant : Emma, Aqilah, Atiqah Najwa, Pamela and Geetha and Praveena too. OH! Praveena, MY SKIRT! xD i forgot to take it back from you yesterday.

Anyways. that was about yesterday. and i am currently hating a few people. you should seriously go to hell. i mean you all think that you did so much work and all those shit. but what the heck? i'm sure i did so much more than you okayh, bitch. i was like helping this girl to set up her stall cause she dint know how to do it and it was like 11.50 which was 10 minutes before the carnival started. then i was running two stalls till one closed down cause the wind kept coming and the things just wouldnt stay. so we finally focused on one stall and it became a huge success. we better get a prize for that if not i'm gonna skin someone alive. seriously. you think you deserve it? mind you, you fucking cheated okayh? and you make me feel like some arse hole for the past few days and i dint say anything. everything was covered with a stupid fake smile. but everything i see you, all i know is that you're a fucking cheater and no matter what, i'm still better than you. even everyone can see that you dont deserve a single crap that you're getting. i'm sorry to say. YOU OFFICIALLY SUCK! and I HATE YOU.

i know my blog has been like shit for the past whole week. but sorry, i cant help it. if i dint say what i did, it'll be like 'deprived of social expressions' or something like that. i just came up with it. haha. oh, btw the band that played wasnt that bad la. but Pamela thought that the lead singer couldnt sing. but what the heck? i still think they're better than other bands okayh.

Are 4 paragraphs enough? :)
if i havent bored you, continue reading.

the last person i wanted to see was you. but somehow, poeple who looked like you keep popping infront of me. yeah. i couldnt believe it that i was staring at one of them and i suddenly snapped out of it when i thought if was weird enough. and the weirdest part is that. althought i've seen you a few times, your face keeps appearing somewhere. but after looking for a while, i know it wouldnt be you. and it shouldnt be you cause. the timing just doesnt make sense. Its been really weird, this week. yes. i was over thinking a lot of things. too many infact. which was a bad thing cause it totally ruined my mood and i snapped at Amani for a bit when we were talking about the tent placing and stuff. Sorry...

Its nothing special.Although she's pretty. you wouldnt realise it. She might think about you all the time and cry because she misses you, you wouldnt know it either. and she keeps getting confused when other people seem to notice her but you. All she wants, is your love.

*i'm talking about a girl in a book*

that should do it :)

7:09 PM

i dint get what i needed. And all i needed was for you to tell me that its okay

12:07 AM

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god knows why i'm feeling so terrible these few days. Yes. People must die for that. Tomorrow is the iu day. Gah. Its going to be dreadful! Fuck it. Bite my tongue. And i officially hate the month of june cause everyone acts like some fucked up arse. Seriously. Everyone. Even people walking on the streets! Like every june since 3 effing years ago, my phone got stolen twice and got confiscated on the other year. This year, my mum's phone became a prostitute. Someone stole it and i'm borrowing my phone to her. So i'm only using my prepaid number. But whatever. I still get a phone and a number. Today, dahlah i'm already not in the mood, went for tuition then my teacher said no class cause one guy cant make it. She forgot to call me. I was totally fine with it. Then, gah. Continued reading my book. Its a true story about a girl who got abused and those shit. It was depressing okay. It made me cry at some points. Especially when i think about how cruel mothers can be. Then after something happened, i cried even worse. I wasn't even sure what i was crying for. It was either the book or the days of suppressed feelings. Thinking about it, its exactly what happened last year. Agony wei! I'm not going to describe anything. I'll just leave it till here.

11:50 PM

june is seriously a bad month for me.

9:26 PM

blasting sum 41's over my head on my ipod. Next : my chemical romance. After : good charlotte. Omg. I need more. Its a nice feeling :) yeah. Oh. Wait. Haru haru will be next xD

8:03 PM

my blog has been depressing. I dont need anyone to tell me that. But
good news : i got chosen for cheer :)
random news : natasha just got a condom for her finger. (she says she's straight. Must be something more that she's not telling)
Bad news : my fingers hurt. They might as well just drop off.
Random thought : i might wanna try net ball or volley ball or some sort of ball game. Rebecca, teach me! :)

3:56 PM

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people, this saturday is assunta's iu day and carnival :) iu is from 10am till 12pm and the carnival is till 4pm :) come yeah :) and on july 4, we're having our install :) so come. :) and i'm most probably going to be performing :) okay? :)

8:09 PM

stacie orrico - stuck
Avenged sevenfold - dear god
Shinee - romantic
A & T - something happened to my heart

These are like the songs that kinda describe my feelings now. Oh just finished watching the biggest loser but jillian isn't in the show. I'll support blue team because i like bob :) and i was watching chit chat of beautiful ladies. Omg. It was damn funny today's episode. the malaysian girl is back. And there's a new girl from columbia. Whee. Oh. Last week, leeteuk and shindong was on the show :)

7:51 PM

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i'm in a fruit paradise. There are mangosteens, pears, nangka, rambutans, strawberries, grapes, apples, kiwi and some weird fruits with lotsa seeds. Haha. Anyhows, dinner was great. I had like all the great food in the world. Kinda la. Like pork chop, bayam, curry chicken, sengkuang and lettuce. XD omg. I hate chinese shows that try to be more western. Especially the kissing part its just so darn fake okay? It makes them look stupid. Sorry for the random ness. I'm just watching tv. Gah. I need to do my chemistry. So distracted.

9:16 PM

by the way people, i still haven't turned my computer for the past 2 days or so. Something like that. I'm so proud of myself! Omg. I sound like a weirdo.

5:56 PM

if someone asked me to pull my bladder and weigh it, it'll be at least 2 kilos. Thats a lotta chicken.

Anyway, today during we did a histogram for maths today. And we were good people. We as in me and geetha. At about 12, when the bell was about to ring, geetha asked me something about graphs and the frequency shit. After explaining, that we dont have to draw a histogram cause the question dint ask for it, just draw the graph and we're done, geetha suddenly stopped and asked 'what is a histogram?' it was a really stupid question and it was suppose to be for me to ask. But somehow, she was just being funny today xD

Omg. I just saw a squirrel! :)
The weather is freaking hot, people. Save the environment! XD gah. I sound like some darn preacher.
This is something worth preaching. Come for assunta's iu day :) its a carnival :) its at 9 i think. Till 12 or something. Omg! Damn! I cant go for lunch with my family? Wow. Omg. It clashes! Die die die die die dead. Omg omg omg omg omg omg omfg. Thank god i'm blogging about it now. Gah.. Omg. Everything just has to be on the same day =.=

5:45 PM

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for me to ask you to always be here is too much. I'm fine the way things are. I'm still secretly hoping you're out there, reading this. Starting over again isn't as hard as it seems. Neither is it that easy. But i'm fine just missing you from time to time. You would never know anything and i'd like to keep it that way. Say, this was just on my mind. If you were waiting, and that something never comes, and you keep waiting, and when you know, for sure its never going to come, we're suppose to stop right? And carry on with life. But doesn't it just feel wrong? To put something that you want so much down? Omg. I'm really crapping. Hmm. I should stop thinking about it and getting to understand my physics. Omg. Its like some really complicated piece of shit dumped right in front of you and you're suppose to understand it just like that. Me and calculations never work out. Sorry, nerds :)

8:23 PM

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something that must be done a long time ago :) i'm going to it ready for school soon babes :)

6:07 AM

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i secretly hope you're reading this. Although there's a high probablity you wont be. But i've been thinking so much. And you really i guess in a way, made me realise how important it is. Maybe its just everyone around you. I dont know. I hope one you'll realise that ..... :)

11:46 PM

is never too late right? Okay. I know its not. I'm going to be anti social for a while. Please dont mind me. I'll be back to normal soon. I think its too late. I'm sorry. I dont know what to do. Please tell me it isn't. I really wanna make things right again. I dont wanna lose it. I know i haven't been good. Santa can skip his visit this year. I dont mind. I just wanna know its not too late to start. Please. I was stupid. I did what i could. But i was still stupid. I ruined part of it. Its my fault. I take all the blame. Just make this right. Omg. I was stupid. Really stupid. I'm sorry

10:18 PM

i think i got my appetite back :) whee. Hmm. My tummy is going to be fat again xD who cares? I get to eat :) i'm on the phone again. While watching tv :) this show is just weird. Oh. I had this butterscotch bread :) its good! Go try. Its totally worth 4 bucks :) btw, i got it from the petrol station :)

9:21 PM

I'm like surfing the net on my phone. This is so cool! Yeah. I sound like a blonde. But whatever. Anyway. I was suppose to update something on yesterday but i forgot. Anyways. Yesterday / day before yesterday, i was really bored and i started throwing my tantrums till my brother said that i can go for a movie. And i tried booking like the earliest movies but it was all full. And mid valley was un-book-able. So i booked a movie for 4 at 11.45pm in ioi mall. Yeah. I haven't been there since i moved out from my old house. And somehow somehow, we ended going out with weixing, weiguang and weiyang. Omg. It was like 1/1/09 :) haha! Watched 17 again. I'm not a fan of Zac Efron. The movie was stupid but funny :) We went to mcd after the movie and just made lotsa noise there. Oh. Oh. And in the car, we all were singing to some songs. Omg. It was like those long road trips and every boring ones, and someone started singing something catchy and everyone just joins in. I swear all the cars were honking at us :) and it dint rain! :) and there was one part, like at the car park, i was racing with weixing and i won :) now he owes me starbucks, he's denying it and blaming his slippers for his loss :) whee! :) more free food/drinks :) omg. I feel so happy. Wait. I'm actually not very. I was so sleepy. And my dad woke me up at 9 am. Btw, 5 of us stayed up all friday night, getting our coke refilled, going to the next door mamak stall to use the toilet, playing cards (unfortunately, no money was involved) and chit chatting :) it would be the perfect way to spend my fridays every 2 weeks or so xD (its just a thought) hmm. I'm still into this phone. Its so cool! :) i wonder why i never did this before :/ anyways, i'll blog again later. I feel so lazy to on my computer now xD

10:51 AM

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Tagged by VIVI ;D
All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.
Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head.
And then answer the questions.Say you're guessing if you don't know. but at least guess all of them
After this,tag your 21 'lucky' friends to do the same.
1.Ashwin Assokan

2.Blueberry Topping
3.Pamela Choi Pui Yue
4.Ng Su Ann
5.Sylvia Wong Shealeen
6.Hana Nazira
7.Vivianna Assokan
8.Cheryl Lai Kar Yean
9.Tiara Jane Anchant
10.Chew Way Wen
11.Ho Wei John
12.Ho WeiGuang
13.Ho WeiXing
14.Richie Lee
15.SNM

16.Geetha Thiyagarajan

17.Adrian Beh Jian Fung
18.Kan Yew Weng

19.Sofeya
20.Munira
21.Fai

*omg. dont ask my why i named these people. its seriously RANDOM!*

1.How did you meet 7?(Ashwin Assokan)
Its a really long story. But we eventually met after about two years of talking to each other.

2.What would you do if you and 15 had never met?(SNM)
Omg. I dont know. Less one person to love and to talk to?

3.What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?( Ashwin Assokan and Munira)
Haha. I wouldnt do anything. They're already the best of friends but it'll be weird :P

4. Have you seen 17 cried?(Adrian Beh Jian Fung)
Yeapp. I always do the honours of passing him the tissue paper.

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?( Ng Su Ann and Geetha Thiyagarajan )
Nope. dont think they really know each other.

6.Do you think 11 is attractive?(Ho Wei John)
He's just a good friend!

7. What is 2's favourite colour?(Blueberry Topping)
Blue? He hates my walls cause they're blue. So the only way to see it is that he's jealous of my lovely blue walls :)

8. When was the last time you talked to 9?(Tiara Jane Anchant)
Few days ago. Online.

9.What language does 8 speaks?(Cheryl Lai Kar Yean)
English :)

10.Who is 13 going out with?(Ho WeiXing)
dont know. He has mutiple girlfriends. hahahaa.a.. his brother saw some letter from a girl on his table :P

11.Would you ever date 17?(Adrian Beh Jian Fung)
Nope. Sorry, brother. I love ya. but nope.

12. Where does 18 live? (Kan Yew Weng)
Klang :)

13. What is the best thing about 4?(Ng Su Ann)
Everything.

14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?(Chew Way Wen)
WAaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyywwwwwwwwwwennnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!! :)

15. What is the best thing about 20?(Munira)
You'll never feel down talking to her and she's loud :)

16. Have you ever kiss 2? (Blueberry Topping)
Nope....

17. What is the best memory you have of 5? (Sylvia Wong Shealeen)
My flyer for cheer and my friend since std 4. what's not to remember?

18. When's the next time you're going to see 1?(Ashwin Assokan)
I was suppose to see him today. Due to somethings... tak jadi. (its my fault. i know) i know you still love me anyhows!

19. How is 7 different from 6?( Vivianna Assokan and Hana Nazira)
Vivianna :
Chindian
Short hair
Louder
Shorter than me :)
13 years old.
Loves Korean.

Hana:
Malay
Loud
A lil bit shorter than me :)
16 years old.
Loves Korean

conclusion : They both are shorter than me. They both love Korean. They're both loud.

20. Is 2 pretty?(Blueberry Topping)
He's a guy. hmm. pretty. maybe XD

21. What was your 1st impression of 15? (SNM)
Friendly :) but it was akward at first? xD

22. How did you meet 3?( Pamela Choi Pui Yue)
Somehow we did. in school :)

23. Is 5 your best friend? (Sylvia Wong Shealeen)
Good friend :)

24. Do you hate 12?(Ho WeiGuang)
I wouldnt spend the whole night with him (and my brother and his brothers) and put his name there if i hated him, no? and i could've just killed him last night if i hated him :P

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?(Kan Yew Weng)
Nope. not since Nazz came from Tawau.

26. When was the last time you saw 16?(Geetha Thiyagarajan)
Friday I guess. somewhere 2 weeks ago. or thursday. hurm. we were suppose to go to Sunway Lagoon. I totally forgot about it. but did you all go?

27. Have you been to 5's house?(Slyvia Wong Shealeen)
Nope but i know where it is :)

28. When's the next time you'll see 10?(Chew Way Wen)
Online. Anytime :)

29. Are you close to 11?(Ho Wei John)
Yupp...

30. Have you been to the movies with 4?(Ng Su Ann)
Yuppp :)

31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8(Cheryl Lai Kar Yean)
I think so. Maybe. We sat beside each other in form 3. whatever could happen :P

32. Would you give 19 a hug?(Sofeya)
YESS!! omg. yes. the banana loving person :) the one that gave our Zimbabwe our name. She'll probably kill me for not going for her IU. but she still loves me :)

33. When have you lied to 3? ( Pamela Choi Pui Yue )
On the trip to Japan, it proved how good we are to each other XD

34. Is 1 good at socializing?( Ashwin Assokan)
OMG! yes. you should see how he goes migling with anyone/everyone.

35. Do you know a secret about 8?( Cherly Lai Kar Yean)
I think i do :) am i suppose to tell it out? its a sercet after all.

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18(Ho WeiGuang and Kan Yew Wen)
They don't know each other

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?(Tiara Jane Anchant)
She makes people happy/cranky/crappy-full.

p/s. I seriously dont know how i picked my friends okayh?

2:21 PM

well the people i list MUST do this (:

Ash.

Sofeya.

Mun.

Fai.

Blueberry.

Waywen.

Peng Hooi.

Xim.

Hana.

Su Ann.

Pam.

Guys and girls who visits my blog often.

Hayati 1 . What's my nicknames ? <>
Elaine. Elainey. Blonde.

2 . What's my brother , sister , mother , father's name ?
you;re actually asking about my grandfather right? okayh. Lim.

3.Who are my favourite singers ? <>
Dong Bang Shin Ki , 2 PM , Big Bang , SS501 , SHINee

.4 . Whose my Bestest Friend in the whole wide world ?!
you. i dont have to say your name. you know you're special to me :)

5 . Whats my baby cousin's name ? <>;

Nicky.

Yvonne.

both are the youngest first cousins i have.

.at the end of this test ,

Your total over 5 times two (:

- 5 / 5 you know me LOADS ;D

-4 / 5 haha , you know me averagely ;D

- 3 / 5 haha , you know me OKAY ;D

- 2 / 5 wow , your hmmm , okay i guess ? ;D

- 1 / 5 wow you hmm , DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL ;D

2:10 PM

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I'm a threat to myself.

4:46 PM

Lets all rot in hell.

4:37 PM

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somehow i dont know why you're such a big exception in my life. i knew if somone else would have done what you did to me, i'd ignore that person. but i dont know what is it that you do that makes you so different from others. sometimes i wonder why do you bother about me. gah. i dont want to think about you anymore. i need a life. WITHOUT YOU IN IT.

9:58 PM

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BALLSSSS!!! balls balls balls balls. Alison, i dont know why i'm so crazy about balls. balls balls balls balls balls. :P I wanted to take a picture of the chicken. but i ate it all up :P
The swing i love. Dont take my place.

Big FOOT

The writeing is stupid. 'speSIAL'

Try remembering which switch works for what.

I used this microwave to heat up 3 curry puffs and it took 20 mins to heat everything up. Its stupid.

This is my cousin's school which looks more like an academy. In a few years to come there might be a swimming pool, then Pamela would migrate to Malacca for the pool :P

This Spongebob box is the most childish thing. It's just a box. With faces of a sponge named bob and it costs 60 bucks. and it only has POPCORN in it. Its the stupidest invention ever and only rich people who doesnt know how to waste their money buys these things.

now a days, SHOES go RUFF RUFF!

1:50 PM

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I realised that if I dyed my hair blonde, no one could really tell the difference between a real blonde and me.

11:10 PM

YOU'RE NOT VERY INTERESTING BUT I AM INTERESTED.

GOING SHOPPIN. CYA BABES!

1:07 PM

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I realised so many effing things were going on.
I guess my head is kinda cleared now.
I'm going to blog about my trip to malacca when i find the time and energy.
I'm currently into shopping. (but i realised i choose more clothes for my brother than myself. I'm such a loving sister. I know)
Maybe now i know how you feel about me doing it to you because someone is doing it to me now. So i decided. I'm turning it off and going to sleep (guess what this line means. I knew everyone would think sideways. keep guessing)
Maybe i shouldnt have any high hopes. Nothing good ever comes out of it.
Lets all move on with our lives and pretend nothing happened.
I realised half my holidays are gone and i've done nothing.. (kill me)
Stop talking like you know me and get on with your life cause you dont know a crap about me.

12:24 AM

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I'm inMalacca now and i did get some really weird random pictures.
anyways. first meal here is.. KFC!
god. i came all the way to malacca to eat cheesy potato wedges.
its just so weird.
Anyways.
hope to post up those random pictures soon.
there was one on spongebob. and stuff like that.
byessss people.
I'll miss you :)

10:43 PM

Leaving. Soon.

Syncing my ipod.

Dont wanna get bored.

All the way to Malacca.

Then all the way Back.

I'm going to miss ya.

Hopefully the fun will still be around.

Take me out.

Save me from boredom.

OMG.

Happy Belated Birthday Kayla!

*shit. i forgot to call you. you can kill me for being forgetful and unfair*

now a days i'm just thinking about..

YOU.

byeesss..

I'm so full of crap.

I'm so sleepy.

I'm going to Malacca.

The land of..

CHICKEN RICE BALLS.

big balls. small balls. medium sized balls.

BALLS balls balls balls balls balls balls balls balls balls balls balls baballs balls balls balls balls balls balls balls balls.

shit. I totally forgot the meaning of balls and the word looks so weird now.

CHICkeN RICE BALLS!

9:35 AM

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I so love this dress.

It costs about 900 bucks XD

Yeah.. The top that I was looking forward to buy so much.

So this was about today.

Went shopping and thats about it.

Anyways.

Thats about it.

Babes, I'll be going off to Malacca to see what other things I can do there than rotting at home.

I'll be back on friday.

Dont think I'll be blogging till then.

I"LL MISS YOU

10:19 PM

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The people I love just made me realise how lucky I am.

To have people to love me and for me to love them back.

All my worries are gone now.

I hope they dont find a way to get back to me.

1:29 PM

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I dont know where I went wrong.

I dont know what to do now.

Was it all in my small lil head?

Why did it happen?

How did it happen?

I'm lost.

Someone point me the direction to somewhere....

somewhere.

out.

there.

I just wanna..

I dont know what I wanna do.

Its not about today.

Its just about the situation.

Everything is messed up.

EVERYTHING.

6:08 PM

I wish I could be so darn carefree. Thank Gawd my internet connection is up again. Took the guy long enough. Not coming online for a few days really made my typing worse. Honestly. I dont know what the fuck is going on with my life. Yeah. This year is so fucky ( i wanted to sat 'sucky' but I accidentally typed 'f' and I dont feel like deleting it) . I seriously dont know what's going on. Everything is just spinning and I'm just thrown into it and it spun so fast, I got swinged out. Get it? Firstly, I'm not a big fan of American Idol but Adam Lambert should have won. I was listening to Chris's 'remixed' version of One Republic's Apologise and I couldn't tell the difference from the original that One Republic sang. Guys with eyeliners are hot okay? Face it! They just are. Well, just like Chris's winning, everything went the wrong way. Almost everything. I'm going back to watching my Korean drama that I was suppose to finish a long time ago but got stalled thanks to TM.

5:37 PM

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Am I that bad?

Why cant you actually respect my decision and my opinion? Its not like I'm not trying and there you are condeming everything I do. Its not only me. You think I have a problem. You just dont realise what's yours and you seem to have some dissapointment or some sort in your life and you're taking it out on me. Why the fuck do I care? I cant stand you anymore. Those weren't just dreams. I plan to make it work and just watch me but cant you just listen and see what I wanna do before you say anything? Everything is just so messed up. Whatever you're doing is just like so one sided. I really dont know what to say to you anymore. Oh. Fuck off. You dont have any rights on what I want to do. You always think you're right. You always think you know what's best. But its all in your head. I thought I came back to reality. Have you? Why do I feel everything falling apart? I know I'm not good enough but why the fuck are you judging me?

I'm sorry for this depressing post. I'm fine.

5:42 PM

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Post : Thats What You Get

Isnt it great that things usually turn out the way you want it to? Gah. I'm happy that she remembers everything that you did, who she really is, who she loved. EVERYTHING. And this really shows how much her guy loves her and hate you. So loathable. You can show off all you want and wear the finest things in the world but you'll never get to his heart. I'm glad it ended this way. Now you get to burn, babe! Gah. You rock so much for making me hate you.

This is about the step sister too.

10:42 PM

Next Post : You Suck.

I hate your loathsome face. I just fell like slapping you all the time. Your eyes are filled with jealousy and anger. Your mouth says nothing but lies. Your actions are nothing but a play in a movie. Yet, people are nice to you. Thinking that you are good just because you have an innocent face. You buy people's feelings. They dont care about you. All they want from you is your money and your fame. I dont get it. Why weren't you the one that got hit by the car? Why weren't you the one that lost your memory? Why take it out on that innocent girl who was just about to meet with happiness? People like you should be burnt in hell. Yeah. A gazillion degrees C. Then disect your brains out and experiment your diabolical plans. And feed the rest of your body to the strays. Even the hospitals wont accept your organs for donations cause it'll just poison people. Filled with cyanide on the surface of every cell in your body.

I was just talking about the step sister in a drama.

9:53 PM

I feel like today is one of the days where I can update my blog after I finish posting something. Yes, I am in a depressing state right ( winter ). Maybe its time I do it? Would you respond to me? How would you? Why is it that everytime I wanna tell you something, the words just dont seem to come out. Its like I got everything planned out but its just cause of my pea brain I cant seem to remember anything. Life's really annoying right now. All I wanna do is flunk add maths tomorrow. Screw that paper. Everyone is having exams while I'm having my holdiays. I wanna go out. Sometimes it just feels like these are one of the days where standing in the middle of a highway and getting knocked down by a cherry red Ferrari a great opition. Its my ideal death. Only that I want to be the one driving the cherry red Ferrari. What's with today? Gah. Tomorrow will definitly be a better day.

9:38 PM

Back to reality, baby.

Everything is just coming back.

Take me back to the world where I used to enjoy.

Stuck with decisions.

Decisions that I dont wanna make.

I dont know what to do with it.

End my life for good?

Where I wont have to make any decisions after that.

Then everyone would be stuck with the decision that I made.

Or just carry on making decisions.

Something that wont guarantee a good ending.

But it might be a better choice for everyone.

otteokae?

8:39 PM

Happy Birthday :

Bernadette Koh

Chloe

Chan Ca Yung

Chan Ca Hoe

Ho Wei John

2:55 PM

Let me live in my dreams.

I dont wanna come back to reality.

Just one more minute.

I'm not ready to come back.

In that dream,

I was the main character.

Now everything is going to change.

Let me stay like this.

I'm sick and tired of everything.

But.

Neoreul haru haru kidarida

Get it?

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6:34 PM

Sat for Chemmyy exam. I failed.
Sat for Siviks exams. I failed.
Not officially but here is something about Siviks.
I dont even know why we study it but I think I finally got it.

I learnt that I am a drug addict.
I learnt that I was a sinner and should be charged guilty for 'pergaulan bebas'.

The symptoms of my drug addiction as said in the SIVIKS textbook.
Yeap. We have a use(less) textbook. Poor trees were chopped down for this. Blame this for being a cause of global warming.
- sentiasa letih. I'm always tired!
- kurang daya ingatan. You cant really expect me to remember things okayh? I always forget what I wanna say
- tubuh badan semakin susut. this is not right. I'm gaining weight la. So this symptom isnt true.
- tidak dapat mengawal diri. I watch TV too much. And I cant contro myself doing two things : Eating and Texting.
- mengabaikan kebersihan diri. This one is DEFINITLY untrue okayh?!

Conclusion : I'm a drug addict. But I'm a legal one.

and the only cure they have for this is.... COLD TURKEY.
I was thinking of killing a turkey on Christmas and freezing it to death and I'll take it out the next day to eat. RAW COLD TURKEY.

Lastly, Pergaulan Bebas.
I'm just going to write what they said okayh?

Pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan seharusnya bertujuan untuk memberi manfaat kepada dua pihak. Pergaulan yang melibatkan antara lelaki and perempuan haruslah diadakan di tempat yang TERBUKA dan bukannya di tempat tempat terperinci yang boleh mendatangkan syak wasangka orang lain.
Translation : Girls and guys can only be friends for BENEFITS. Yeah. Both the types of benefits. And I definitly sinned already XD

Pada masa sekarang menular pula penyakit perlakuan seks secara rambang.
Translation : There's a disease called Open Sex? or Simply Sex? or Rambang Sex? Everyone Sex? I thought the newest disease was meningitis.

Apabila bergaul kita seharusnya bergaul dengan dengan orang orang yang baik budi pekertinya dan yang mempunyai akhlak mulia.
So : You shouldnt be talking to me or any of my friends cause we are all corrupted people.

By the way, I dont study and I'm not a nerd.

2:25 PM

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I'm having chemistry exams in about 10 hours from now?
And I just finished spending 1 hour and 30 minutes watching the last epiode of Boys Over Flowers. Yeah my guilty pleasures. My second time watching it. Listened to the music. T - max - Paradise just ruins every romantic scene la. Imagine right, a guy proposing to a girl at the side of the beach. Its like an ideal situation. And once he finishes his sentence "Would you marry me...." and suddenly out of no where.. ' ALMOST PARADISE........' and its like REALLLYYY loud okayh? horrible song. Woobin Sunbae could have done a better choice in choosing the songs. I like / love Jihoo Sunbae's choice of music :D

Now, I'm blogging, sinning and feeling guilty for not reading Chemistry. Reading my mails, listening to Poker Face sent by SNM. Its a rock version but it sounds good. Now, I dont feel like studying. All someone needs to do now is offer me a bar of chocolates and I'm as good as not sitting for my Chemistry exam tomorrow.

I officially flunked Chemistry :)
But I'm still thinking of Jihoo Sunbae.

XoXo

10:24 PM

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Can you....

Pull my limbs to make me taller / longer?

Sponsor me to go travelling?

Listen to my crap?

Tolerate my annoying existence in this planet?

Give me an extra hour a day to play?

Hire me a driver so I dont have any more transportational problems?

Buy me chocolates to sink my teeth in and then get me a threadmill to lose all the calories?

Take me shopping and buy me whatever I want?

Bring me clubbing?

Get me a personal assistant so I dont have to go to school and still get all the information i need?

(wait. thats a clone's job)

Implant a system in my brain so I can speak and listen to foreign language?

(I would like to emphasize on Korean and Japanese)

Take me to meet Shinee, BOF casts, Big Bang........?

Pay for my plastic surgery bills?

(I would need to redo my nose, eyes and get some lazer thingy to get rid of my scars)

Take me out for Japanese food?

Gimme all the love I need?

4:48 PM

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I'm interested in sharks.

OMFG.

I really want to study but I just cant do it.

I wanna play basketball again.

Oh.

I played basketball today :)

2 on 1.

Dickson and I won Alfred!

Shit. Shit.

I'm sleepy.

Erm. I'm going to start blabbing.

I had hamburger. For the one minute in my life.

I missed it.

Yeah. So much for a hamburger!

And my brother wanted to make me fat.

So he dumped chocolates into my room.

Then he needed coins, so I took them out.

He just grabbed a handful of them and started counting.

Oh. Shit.

I forgot what to write! I think I'm better off sleeping =D

Nights.

I actually forgot why i even chose that title.

12:23 AM

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Dimwit!

I used to like Biology but now, I change my mind.

I'm going to sleep during my next Biology exam.

I officially hate. CALCULATIONS.

Its all thanks to the lady who made the possible seem so impossible.

She needs a life.

All those qualifications that she got in the past to become who she is now is useless.

Because the only qualification that she needs now is to get my whole class to pass

MATHS. and ADD MATHS.

Which is highly impossible.

Because for someone who is so dumb in teaching can prepare such difficult questions thinking that she's done a good job.

She effing crammed 4 chapters in about two weeks!

This is a lady who has a FACE problem.

have you read the book :

WITHCES.

By Roald Dahl.

That lady is like the ultimate WITCH!

She hates children.

She's frigging tall and skinny.

And she's has a problem.

ME and GEETHA.

But its all her fault!

She makes people laugh and scolds them for that.

I think I'm done 'talking' about her.

which includes PHYSICS. MODERN MATHS. CHEMISTRY. ADD MATHS.

Its not that bad, but right now, I'm angry at calculations.

I wanted to eat Indian food today in town but all the plans dint seem to work out.

Thinking that today is a Friday and i finished my exams for the week,

I wanted to come home to sleep.

Then i remembered I'm having two tuitions later.

PHYSICS. was one of them.

oh. And the traffic today was crazy!

A guy's car died in the middle of the road.

He dint care to put a sign or do anything.

He left the car and stood at the roadside.

And that stupid car cause a whole load of traffic.

Then there was a girl.

Trying to cross the road.

But she was scared?

So she stood in the middle of the road.

Yes. My brother could have honked at her and made her cry.

Or knock her down and make her parents cry.

But she was damn effing cute.

Not as cute as some girl in Clare Junior's Cheer la.

So she just gave way little by little.

I think it took a minute for us to get out of that place.

LASTLY.

There was the car my mum liked.

I hated to car cause the back made it look like some fat pig's ass.

Yeah. It was driving damn slow.

WHATS WRONG WITH EVERYONE TODAY?!

1:43 PM

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I'm feeling a bit weirded out by something. But it'll past.

I'm sneezing while the air cond is on 24.

Hana : Why dont you update your blog?

Elaine : Nothing to write la.

I'm seriously blank right now.

I dont know why I'm posting this.

My fingers are pain.

I dont feel like reading biology yet.

I had to write 4 essays today.

People make bets on me.

To see if I go for recess or not.

I realised I'm weird.

I ask too many questions.

I crap too much.

I woke up at 6.40am today.

No, I wasnt late for the exam.

I wanna change my layout.

I wanna text.

The only thing i can remember about biology is the metaphase.

I need to know how to change my layout.

I'm depending on Ash to change my layouts.

okayh! I've finally made up a post with all the random thoughts in my head.

4:18 PM

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No matter how I look at it, something is still not right. OMFG. Exams are damn stupid okayh?
I dont even feel ready for this exam.
I dont feel the pressure and I dont think I'll be feeling anything for the next two weeks.
Today was just the start of it.
I was dumb. Yes. I forgot what Cik Yap said. (who ever remembers what she says?)
' Choose only one essay question and seperate your points into different paragraphs'
I had too much time and I thought that I had to write 2 essays. So I did.
Gah. This is really dumb. Everything seems so wrong everywhere. EVERYWHERE!!
I'm restraining myself from eating the 3 bars of chocolate in my room right now. my pimples are errupting!

4:34 PM

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i've tried. but i dint get it. i knew i wouldnt. so i'm not dissapointed. why the heck should i be? two people owe me a meal now :D

3:22 PM

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she fell inlove again

3:34 PM

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SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO POST THE PICTURES!!

His hands are cacat but the pictures are not bad

Ash (:

Richmond Chow.

She's always cheerful

amal, fai, mun and salwa.

(sorry i dont know the guy's name)

I wanna be as tall as Fai!

lil mrs cheerful.

This picture looks hawt.

Fai and Ash :)

cacat once again

mun and salwa. (with salwa's eyes closed)

ziema and hana

you'll never really expect this

me likey.

my hair looks like.. the evil witch of the sea

Vivianna!!! :)

11:37 AM

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Inspired by Blueberry,

Written by Cheese.

11:03 PM

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5:38 PM

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Tiara the dancer.

I <3> My Twin (:

Abinaya

AMANI!!!

Jeet. primary friend that i havent seen in 5 years.

Michelle :D

Nut Cracker. xD

Michelle and half of Amani

LOVE this picture.

Geetha, Abinaya

CANDID! :)

Jaishree and Justine.

Wan Tau Long! - joys of going back to Ipoh-

Get jealous.

More jealous?

SNM, I know you want it.

One of the only things I love to eat that has nuts.

4th Place.

HUGEeeEE POMs..

The process of doing my pom pomsss

sun.

ELLE!

HK did this on MSN!

Talent and Passion

Ash!

Amal. :)

Fai and Christine. =D

1:50 PM

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My Miserable Life Is Your Entertaiment.

Thanks Jun Ming. =.=

SNM!!! I MISS YAAA!!! :P

(I'm sure you're gonna read this)

Homework = Killer

Add Maths Class and Homework = Suicide

Malay and Add Maths on the same day = OMFG i DIED!

I wonder how my teacher will react to APRIL's FOOLs Day!

Puan Kong! :P the most-going-to -be- stressed up day in your life.

Dealing with the 4 Science 3's

Somedays i wish you were here.

Btw, when i was asked if i like my life right now, i just wanted you to know that i dont like it cause you're not here. :)

11:05 PM

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001. Real name: Beh E-Laine
002. Nickname(s): Laine.
003. Zodiac sign: Cancer!
005. Male or female:Female
006. Elementary: Tadika Yume
007. Middle School:SK Seri Mega :)
008. High School: Assunta :D
009. College School: Dont know yet.
010. Hair color: Dark brown but i highlighted it light brown 2 years back. so its still BROWN!
011. Long or short: Height?! Tall? compared to the person who tagged me. But SHORT when you compare me with the person's brother who tagged me.
012. Loud or Quiet: LOUD! Assuntarians and Cheerleaders are meant to be loud.
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans :D
014. Phone or Camera: PHONE!!!...
015. Health freak: Nopeee..
016. Drink or Smoke?: Drink :)
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Nobody but you, Jaejeong.
055. Waiting for: BOYS OVER FLOWERS episode 24. (omfg, JIHOO, JUNPYO, JIHOO's GAY FRIEND, A' ST 1, SS501.. they're effing HAWTTT)

FUTURE:
058. Want kids? Nah.. i'll adopt.
059. Want to get married? Maybe. Maybe Not.
060. Careers in mind? anything but a DOCTOR, ACCOUNTANT, LAWYER (sorry my friends who wanna be anything i stated there)

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE ?
068. Lips or eyes? EYES!! (omg. i feel so accepted into the Koreans and Japanese people category. my eyes are like as small as theirs and its mix matched! like MAX!)
070. Shorter or taller? Taller :D
072. Romantic or spontaneous? Both.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms? Both
074. Sensitive or loud? Both?
075. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship. Dont want anything that cant last.
076. Trouble maker or hesitant? None.
(finally done with this topic)

HAVE YOU EVER
080. Lost glasses/contacts? Nopeeee..
081. Ran away from home? Had the thought but din't have confidence in doing so.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense? Against my brother.. Yeah XD
083. Killed somebody? OMFG. NOOO!
084. Broken someone's heart? Yeshh.. I feel guiltyyy!
085. Been arrested ? By who exactly do you mean.
087. Cried when someone died? Yeahhh...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
089. Yourself? Yeah. But not now. (I'm depressed because of that)
090. Miracles? Yeahhh..
091. Love at first sight? Not really. Just sometimes.
092. Heaven? Sometimes.
093. Santa Claus? Nope.
094 Tooth Fairy? Nope. (my parents kept my tooth. and i never got any money back for that.)
095. Kiss on the first date? Nopeee.. Its hard to believe but i've never dated :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? No. Wait. Maybe yeah. ( i thought of SNM and Blueberry)
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Right now.. NO!
099. Do you believe in God? Dont know. I think so....
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people? I'll tag the people but i wont post it as 100 Truths.

ILOVE YOU! (so i decided to tag you)
1...SuAnn
2...Hana
3...WayWen
4...Blueberry
5...Michelle Hor
6...Megan Chng
7...Lydia Wong
8...Sofeya
9...Johnn
10... Brigidta

5:37 AM

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oh oh!!

Ash and Vivi has this REALLY weird laugh.. where they go like BUAHHAHAHAHA!!
its like a trademark for the Ash-Vivi sibling relationship xD

Ash would probably hate me for writing this. cause when i told him that, he gave my that WTF stare.

i still love ya! :P

11:19 PM

omgsh.. its going to be 11Pm. who cares? anyways.
ICC.. today.. was GREAT!
although our group dint make it, i had fun on stage and 7 mins dint seem so long after all.
then i was sitting with Ash, Amal, Mun, Fai and Sofeya! :D
then we wanted to go out la. but tak jadi. cause i dont know what came up. so i went with Cheryl to Mid Valley.
i had like 3 long tired hours dealing with public transport with like... 12 people!
(Cheryl, Natasha, Bernie, Megan, Michelle, Melissa, Lydia, Kaiyisha,Chris, George (i cant remember his chinese name!), (a guy), Richmond)
yeah. but it was fun after all.
it was like this.

Walking from HGH Sentul Hall to the Putra (lrt station) (i'm not good with public transport) in the RAIN
took the train to Masjid Jamek to transit
Went to KL Central (that place brings back memories (27/11 and Interact Conference)
Bought 10 tickets to go to Mid Valley. tried selling 2 cause we bought extra. and the ticket machine was damn sexist okayh. the whole thing took at least 2 tries and 3 girls to process one ticket but when Richmond did it in one try, everything came out. (WTF?!)
went to the wrong platform for the KTM and we ended up in Angkasapuri. Thank God someone realised that we took the wrong train. and Chris took Melissa's guitar and started singing. ( stupid ass dravier train, left us in the rain, now we're stuck infront of Angkasapuri Lane.. the train has arrived.. OMG THE TRAIN ARRIVED!!)
took the KTM back to KL Central. Chris and George forgot to get down. so they had to wait for the next KTM to come. XD and we wanted to take the right train to Mid Valley. but it was jam packed. only Cheryl and Natasha made it into the train.
we got fed up and just took a cab.

* After all that ( 3 hours)*

WE FINALLY REACHED MID VALLEY!

conclusion :

Get driving license ASAP
Get someone reallllllllyyyy familiar to go on a train with me. or go in a really big group.
i hate public transport.
14 March : A Day To Remember

when i went back, Ash suddenly told me that they went to A&W. cause Mun and Fai last minute thought he was more important.

10:52 PM

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its been a really hectic week and the next two wont be any better.

i've made too many mistakes and i dont know how to undo them. its been obvious that what i've been doing was wrong. why couldnt i see it?

something i've known and wanted for a long time after watching movies, dramas and going through some really depressing times but i dont think i can ever get it. that something could be right infront of me all along. and maybe i was too unsatisfied to realise it. hmm. something i feel like saying to you. i miss you very much. and i havent been talking to you much lately. lets catch up.

everyone seems to have their path set for them. what they're gonna do next, how they're gonna do it. but i havent got anything. no path. uncertain future. and the worse part is that i'm not good at anything. some people are just so lucky. hmm. i dont know where to start or when to end.

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10:00 AM

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this is so weird that we look alike and we have been denying it till today. btw, i'm the one on the right. and you're probably thinking the one on the left is prettier. but anyway, i found my 'twin'...

9:02 PM

bloody bitch.

4:48 PM

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Carot Club

(there're just kids!!)

6:46 PM

Shileena and me !! (and my mix matched eyes)

i wish i could date him.

TV addicts.

Jane and Joy!! <3

he's just the cutest thing on earth sometimes.

Joy was just craving for brownies.

6:26 PM

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Happy Valentine's Day, people!

this year, i'll be accompanied by my muscle pains and homework

10:50 AM

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i'm so screwed!

9:33 PM

omg. its not true that i like tall people but its just so happened that TOP is tall. and he has a great RAP. great LOOKS. great VOICE. UNIQUE. and he's HOT! sorry. but i'm too into him.

8:02 PM

this is the sound of honesty.
i'm giving you my heart.
and i'm asking you to take care of it.

8:00 PM

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i'm a big bumm bumm. i havent updated my blog. and i'm lazy.
i so totally forgot to post pictures and stuff..
gosh. school is just so annoying sometimes.

12:24 AM

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Tagged by Izzy.

DIRECTION: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At last, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.

i'm a bigg bum! i havent done my biology homework.
i lovee visiting on CNY (i need more money)
i dont colour match my clothes nor am i a fashion freak. i just buy what is nice.
i wanna drive!
i talk to people older than me. most of the times.
i get annoyed when people sometimes question the obvious.
i love lil kids. OMG! - Jun Jia - Myra - Hana - Shun Ni - Ivy - lil miss sunshine ( just saw her picture the other day)
the connection sucks la.
i want a bed big enough for me, 3 pillows, 1 bolster , 2 blankies and my stuffed toys..
my goal / my latest obsession is to get high marks for koko.
my room is messy..
my friends are coming over soon.
someone in my house is PMS-ing.
i'm currently inlove with lil kids and koreans and cheer
i wanna grow taller. at least taller than Wei Keat. haha..
my hobby is texting. and coming online. -omgsh. i dont really like facebook. but wth. i already have an account there-

i would lovee to tag - Su Ann - Hana - Weiguang - Pamela - WayWen

12:26 PM

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the moth came with the morning mist.

Weirdly cool.

its just a TOILET~

Pronounce it, baby!
look at the date.. this sign board is older than me

my brother and I

something for Weiguang to get jealous..

yeah..that's my brother.

i was in the mood to camwhore

ME! =)

10:45 PM

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11:41 PM

i need you here. my legal drug

i need to know that everything will be okayh. although its not.

i cant live like this anymore. mind bothering things.

i wish i could erase my past that keeps haunting me. like how i could erase the messages on my phone.

i'm just thinking how it became like this. cause i dont wanna think about the future.

7:15 PM

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We're hot.

We are smoking Lava hot.

We're so hot that the Hall's mint company burst into flames and Nando's ran outta customers.

We're so hot that deserts and droughts form wherever we go.

We're chillie pepper Hot.

We're so hot, the sun got jelous.

We're so hot, the ice in Antarctica and Arctic ocean melted.

We're so burning hot, we could be the burning torch for the Olympics.

We're so hot, there weren't any snow in Japan and Canada ( in fact, there weren't any snow at all)

We're so hot, the Thar Desert became the most infamous place from the bottom.

By : Elaine and Weiguang

4:13 PM

Yoga Magicial, Ross..

Buddieeeesssss sorry Su Ann i took so long to update this.

Olivia..

Pretty Ladies

Hana, Su Ann, Birthday Girl and me.

omgsh. Su Ann looks.. skinny! a big eater with a (small) body.

Assuntarians.. <3

my sayang!

twister...

twisterrrrrrrrr....and Cheryl and Me.

3:53 PM

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its 1.46 am and i dont feel like sleeping. AT ALL!! my hair just looks horrible. i'm so pissed about it, i cant sleep. and i can even tie it the way i want it for Chinese New Year. that's so effing sad. i'm so effing pissed. seriously! who knew 2 inches made such a big difference!?!?! gawdd.. and its not that easy for me to take care of my hair everyday till it actually grows 2 inches long!!!!!!

i wanna scream at someone so loud, their ear drums would break.

1:45 AM

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schooling is killing..
omg. there's just so much homework to be done and so many things to be studied.
and the worse part is that i havent been using my brains for 2 whole months which makes me dumber and i forgot almost everything i learnt in form 1,2,3..
great. all the teachers are gonna screw me up.

10:12 PM

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people, save the ENVIRONMENT!!
today, i was just standing in the sun for a while and i felt my skin burning hot kayh.
even standing under the shade dint do much use!
kayh people?! plant more trees, go green, recycle. just save the environment!

that was something i really wanted to say...
owh. my tuitions today was....
ADD MATHS! (can i die yet?)
its confusing la.kayh kayh,, i'll get the hang of it later on.
and me, Cheryl and Alfred asked like sooo many questions weiyh.
i'm kinda suprised he dint get pissed and i'm hoping he doesnt :D

okayh. so after thinking for a long time, Sc 3 is not such a bad thing. getting top 10 would be kinda easy i guess. but i'll erase this entry if i dont get top 10 :P

9:19 PM

Camwhore in the morning and you'll get blurr pictures.

omfg. life is just so unfair la. i mean THIS is unfair. my brother and Weiguang got like 5A's and 2B's for PMr and they went to 4 Clancy. now i'm getting 6A's and 1B for Pmr and i'm going to Sc 3. i'm so going to change to MBS and do some sex exchange or some sort.

but i kinda predicted la. so wth. i'll just leave it. its not that the students are bad or anything but the teachers today were like.. idontknowhowtosay. i'll let you know if you ask me privately. then i'll let you choose : English teacher? Class/add maths teacher? Siviks teacher? *pukes*
the best teacher so far is my Physics teacher.. xoxo

anyway. i guess thats about all so far. sooo far. i'll blog about something else later tonight if i have time. i've got 2 tuitions coming soon so i've gotta get going.

2:34 PM

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HAPPY SCHOOLING PEOPLE!
thats lame. ..... ......

11:15 PM

i totally forgot to update my blog. and here's some 'synopsis' of what happened on Saturday.

Saturday. 3/1/09.

went out for breakfast with my mum and brother
they dropped me at Mid to meet up with Melissa, Karis, Ju Li, Dionne, Richmond, Ryan and Wye Hong. - had fun and watched YESMAN
waited for everyone to go back
met up with my parents and went shopping ( i bought 4 pairs of bottoms! whee)
went to eat.
came back.
oh. and i forgot to say my phone went out of battery.

Sunday. 4/1/09

stayed at home the whole day!
did spring cleaning for my room.
watched tv
played with my dogs.
blogging now.
chatting.
listening to music

thats the end of my 2 days!!!!!!!!!!! tomorrow will be going back to school ..

10:58 PM

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love is pain,

pain is love,

let me spread my pain.

mcmong

11:11 PM

random-ness is working out for me. i was talking to Weiguang and we randomly decided to go out for a movie. it was not bad. we're lucky to get tickets. haha! we watched Four Christmases.

owh. yesterday was great. i took some pictures but i havent uploaded them yet cause the connection sucks. but anyway, we had food, friends and games. we watched Bedtime Stories. :D

other than that....
i'm just trying to get over the fact that school is going to re-open in a few days.
i dont care how many days.

7:04 PM

1. Do you think you're hot? - Sometimes.

2. Upload a favourite picture of you. - i have a few? cause i like to camwhore. haha

3. Why do you like this picture?- I dont know. i just took it yesterday. haha.

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?- somewhere last month

5. The last song you listened to.- Izayoi No Tsuki - W-inds

6. What are you doing right now besides this?- Chatting and listening to music.

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?- Bel.

8. People to tag.- Hana- Su Ann- WeiGuang-Way Wen - John- Emily

9. Who is no.1?- A great friend. haha. we crap with each other. and love each other unconditionally. haha.

10. No.3 is having relationship with?- i dont think so. i asked him and i think he said no. so no.

11. Say something about no.5.- haha. he's kinda emo.

12. How about no. 4?- a good friend. haha.

13. Who is no.2?- she is.. a shoppaholic. and i love her..too. haha

1:38 PM

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Name 20 people randomly. At the end of the survey, choose 5 people to do the survey. Don't read the questions but name the 20 people first...

01. Su Ann

02. Cheryl

03. Sylvia

04. Pamela

05. Gavin

06. Kayla

07. Ash

08.Hana

09. Kenny

10. John

11. Adrian

12. Wei Keat

13. Sofeya

14. Richie

15. WayWen

16. Nazz

17. Yew Weng

18. WeiGuang

19. WeiXing

20.Farah

1.How did you meet number 18?
he's my brother's good friend. met him during CNY 2008

2. What will happen if you have not met number 17?
no one would spend me for the outing in Pavillion and i wont be angry. hhaha

3. What if number 9 and 20 dated?
haha. fat hopes. they're worlds apart la.

4. What if number 5 and 10 dated?
erm. no.. that's just so wrong. he's family!

5. Describe number 1.
she tagged me. and she loves Dong Dong.

6. Do you think number 8 is attractive?
duh! she is! i love her soo much. ( she's my good friend )

7. Describe number 7.
ASH! hurm. korean mate. haha. he knows more about Koreans than me.

8. Do you know any family members of 12?
personally no. but i've chatted with one or two of them. and he tells me about them sometimes.

9. What languages do number 15 speak?
Portugese. English. Malay.

10. Who is number 9 hanging out with?
how am i suppose to know? he's all the way in

11. How old is number 16 this year?
16 =)

12. Who's number 2 favourite singer?

hurm? anything english? haha. we dont really talk about them. but i think the last time was Leona Lewis i think.

13. When is the last time you spoke to number 13?

last year? haha. somewhere last month.

14. Have you ever dated number 4?
nope. not planning to either.

15. Would you ever date number 19?
i doubt he even likes me. but dating my brother's friend's brother is weird.. so maybe no..

16. Is number 3 single?
yupp. unless she dint tell me she just got a boyfriend.

17. What is number 10 last name?
Ho.. OMG! Ho Wei John. Ho Wei Guang. Ho Wei Xing. OMG!!!

18. Would you be in a relationship with number 11?
no! hell no! he's my brother. and he's annoying.

19. What is the school of number 13?
Sri Aman.

20. Where does number 6 stay?
Damansara.

21. What is your favourite thing about number 5?
he's damn sweet! haha. he's my nephew la. but he was born at the wrong time. cause he's the same age as me.

22. Have you ever seen number 14 naked?
eeeewwww.. no! never thought about it and never will think of it. sorry Richie..

23. Choose 5 people to do the survey.
anyone on the list will do.

11:45 PM

i wont go around looking for you.

but if we meet....

its a good thing.

10:51 PM

Happy Birthday Pam!!

2:37 PM

outing with Emily yesterday was great!
Richmond brought Karis and Cheryl along.
i met up with Emily and some of her friends.
i'm suppose to remember 1 of them , but i dont know / dont remember. haha
talked about almost anything we could think of.

but anyway, we had korean and japanese food there.
takoyaki was great. but the kimchi was.. :P
haha. but i knew most of the songs they played in the korean shop.
mirotic -DbSK
red sunset glow - Big Bang
Love story - Rain
crazy - Son Dalbi i dont spell her name right. haha

in short. i enjoyed my New Year's Eve till 12 am. and till the next day. even if it was just hanging out in McD till 6am. oh. i htink we refilled the Coke for about 20 times. and everyone tried to be 'kiam siap' so we bought a small Coke and got 3 smaller cups to share out.

7:44 AM

random picture. but its a new year resolution - to be random. haha

i dint sleep since last year. and i feel energetic.

consumed too much Coke & Coffee.

the plan was to sit at home as usual and hog the computer.

but my brother ajak-ed me to go out with Wei Guang and Wei Xing.

original plan was to go lepak at McD. but we choose to be random. so..

here's what we did

made my brother drive to town, parked near Sungei Wang
walked to Pavillion.
transit to Starbucks, Times Square, bought cards to 'chor dai dee' played there till 3am something.
walked back to the car. drove to McD and lepak-ed there till 6am.

there was this lady looking at my brother in McD like he was suppose to know her. and they started staring at all of us. and we played 'chor dai dee' in McD. who looses had to drink Coke. Wei Xing has to drink 5 cups more i think. my brother has to drink 2 =D anyway. i've gotta go out at 3pm later.. i just need loads of Coffee and Coke for today.

so far, best new year. cause i wasnt stuck at home. thanks!! =D now i know who to call if i need a friend to teman me till morning =D

6:41 AM

Happy New Year, people!!

6:29 AM

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Sofeya!!
see you this Thursday!!
you get the picture.
her and her banana.

3:10 PM

i'll still smile for you.

finally got my results. i predicted i will get a B for History. and thats what i got. other than that, nothing. haha. i left the result slip in the car. i just dont wanna think about it. yeah its good. and i missed that A cause of some stupid things in my mind. but people say PMR is just to stream you. haha. getting 6A's and 1B is already a good thing cause i'm a bumm and i never study.

2:50 PM

i'm getting the feeling of being in a roler coaster now. 3 min till results come out. and i'm blogging.

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nervous-ness overpowers me.

5:45 PM

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i cant turn around without knowing you'll be alright.

11:18 PM

i was looking at fishes. haha. its boring but i can stare at them for about 30 min. the most i've tried so far. its seriously boring but i think of things when i look at them. today i was looking at 3 fishes. i was guessing 1 male and the other 2 were females. i pity one of the females cause she was so alone, she was by herself all the time. i guess she dint wanna be a 'light bulb' between the other two. so yeah. she was just so isolated. and i do get how she feels.

and since the connection recently was sucky, i picked up something i used to do. play solitare. yes. its boring. and thats what boring people do. but i somehow just thought about this where our life are just like the cards. kinda thing. cause we dont know what's behind the card and when we have to choose between two cards, i really wonder if its the right one. its dumb. but thats what i think.

after listening to all the Korean and Japanese songs, i had the want to listen to English songs again. so these were some of it that i still liked. after a long time.

Sum 41- Over My Head.

Sum 41 - Pieces

Crossfade - Colors

Jem - 24

Hilary Duff - Let The Rain Fall

Good Charlotte - We Believe

Good Charlotte - Predictable

Cute Is What We Aim For - Curse Of Curves

The Kill - From Yesterday

10:50 PM

how effing annyoing can you guys get la?

OMG. wtf.

i'm officially locking myself in the room till kingdom comes.

omfg.

just when i was trying not to use all the bad words. =.=

pictures are just another form of entertainment. (are they?)

I'll Still Smile

11:31 AM

my first Christams present for 2008. and i dint even get it on 25th of Dec. i got it yesterday from my nieces. my SNM finally knew what i got :D

p.s. SNM is a nickname for someone i own.

10:47 AM

Happy Birthday, Gavin

although you're all the way in Phuket,

i still love you!!

this is the only picture that i have of you before your 'accident'.

my nephew who was born at the wrong time.

cause he's the same age as me.

10:31 AM

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Jae is just HOT! i think this is from the song 'Balloons'

have you felt annoyed and dissapointed at the same time? have you tried living with someone who has PMS 24/7? i've got a feeling that i'm getting through these two things right now.

i said i wanted to marry a rich guy.
Ash said : i dont mind being gay to be rich. so lets marry rich guys.

Su Ann said : thats why you have to work la woman!

WayWen said : there arent enough rich guys in the world.

i'm still inlove with Sum41 - Pieces

2:15 PM

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outings, parties. i havent confirmed a single thing.

i'm soo dead meat right now.
how i was i could drive. or get a driver.
what's the point of having a brother at home who can drive but refuses to send you around?
and its not like he's busy or anything. (he's just annoyingly lazy.)

Christmas at KLCC was fun in a way. shopping and doing a lot of walking. (dead tired when i came back) anyway. i bought 5 tops. but i dint get the 2 black tops i really loved! and somehow, i dint buy anything black. ( what an accomplishment!)

bought favourite cookies from Marks & Spencer :D

dinner at Mdm. Kwan's. and had supper on the way back. bla bla bla. erm. went to neighbour's house after that for an impromtu gathering, cane back at about 1am i think, tried blogging but everything just came out wrong, so i went to sleep.

Way Wen quoted : You're like a Bonuslink card. Just waiting to accumulate the time and reasons to shop at will in the future.

btw, results are going to be out in about 4 days. so i hope (fat hopes!) to spend these 4 days too the max. and face the results when the time comes.

1:46 PM

first time feeling that even though i might have done something i shouldn't have, it would be alright. OhMiGosshh. I totally forgot to tell Z that i went to KLCC yesterday. SORRY! i hope you're reading this. :P big head, i'm soo sorry!

1:21 PM

Hero looks like L.

Gawd, He'd make a perfect Edward Cullen. ( i'm talking about the show)

you know how the trend now a days is right? to pull your pants real low till you show people your coin slot? its soo freaking ugly. especially when you think you have a butt like Hero's or Top's but actually dont. i just saw one today and i felt like 'trash talking' about it.

11:39 AM

Kayla

great. i just woke up. and i feel like blogging now.

anyway, the girl in the picture is someone worth loving.

she's just adorable. (she's just 8)

Watch Baby UFO, ya?

btw, this adorable darling think's i'm short!

11:01 AM

to my Stupid Nocturnal Monkey.

gosh. every line i typed for the past 30 mins were so not right. i just had to delete them.

seems like i have no mood for this right now. but i just wanted to say this : my Stupid / Sweet Nocturnal Monkey stayed up till 3 something to send me a message (or at least that's what i think). =.= if it is, thanks but i'd rather you get more sleep.

Goodnight, i'm going to sleep.

1:03 AM

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Yoon Eun Hae is sexxy!!

today i went for a christmas party, it was not bad. meeting relatives and just eating. that was probably it. i dint have anything to complain about it. but there were just two girls there who somehow annoyed me. first is a girl who is tall. at least i think taller than me. she was walking back and fourth like 10 times like she had nothing better to do. and she had this so very bitchy attitude which was pretty annoying. then the second girl. nothing much but she just dressed like a hooker. haha. (dont people dress like this now a days) :P

i kinda hate fashion. especially those extra large belts on your waist. and those stupid flats that makes you look like an ah so going to the market. what a turn off. (but if fits some people really good, sorry to those loyal fashion followers dint mean to offend you)

12:50 AM

Merry Christmas people!! :D

12:46 AM

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family members are just people you're bond to since you were a foetus. ovbiously you think that all of them are great. but when you come out, day 1 from the womb, you wont know anything. wait till 15 years later when you can tell what's right from wrong to see who are your real family are. that would be interesting. most of them are a bunch of asses la. taking everything for granted. but i love some of them very much. you know who you are. :)

iloveyou!

3:33 PM

i need a driver now. i need one to drive me around for the next one and a half years. yeah. till i get my driving lisence. which seems forever for me to be able to take.

12:10 AM

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i wonder why some people have to be so darn racist. it just bugs me so much.
gosh. i wish there was a religion called Free Thinker.
sign me up if you ever come across one,kayh?
kamsahamida.

11:54 PM

its 1 am, i cant sleep and i felt the urge to blog. so here i am. ohmigosh. i'm suffering from amnesia. i totally dont rememebr what to blog about. i remember i was thinking about Twilight. about all the bad reviews i had. but i still wanna watch it but i havent. and then i was thinking about shopping. Ash and Wei Keat make me wanna go shopping now. so much. thinking about things to buy. and things to do. (i have so many things to do and they have been on the list since the holidays started) if i had that much things to buy as i have on my to do list, i'd be bankrupt.

everyday is just. DULL. listening to music, watching tv, coming online, eating. (i'm putting on so much weight, i just dont care anymore) oh. and i have a few outing to attend to before the school start.(and i somehow just keep forgetting about it) btw, i'm living for the school to start. and i'd be begging for the holidays to come. thats life.

i heard someone ransacking the kitchen so i went to see who, it was my mum. so i started a conversation:

me: you're eating?
mum: yeah.
me: are you going to heat these stuff? *points to the cold rice and curry chicken (ithink)*
mum : no. i'm lazy.
me: okayh. i cant sleep.
mum : what are you thinking about?
me: nothing.
mum : how can it be nothing?
me : haha (big smile)
mum : what are youthinking about?
me: BLOGGING. i just on my computer. :D
mum : you blog and see if i whack you or not.

12:58 AM

i haven't been updating my blog.

i havent been flipping / clicking / commenting / reading anyone's blog lately

i dont know who reads my crap

i love those who do, i still love those who dont read my blog.

i've developed lazy bones.

i just feel like lying down infront of the TV forever

i wanna quit my oh-so-favourite hobby, texting, cause my bills are super high. you're going to get high blood pressure.

i wan